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I didn't really do much of anything today. I'm not sure if that is good or bad. I'm off of work. People say you should just relax on your off days and "recharge" so you'll be refreshed for work. The problem is that I have become, once again, a victim of my own fear and lack of confidence and spent the day in more of a work-fear paralysis than just lazing about.
I worked on my resume. Questioned a lot of shit. Ate some healthy food. Spent insane amounts of time on the internet but had fun talking to all my old friends. Something I did before I took on this job.
I wanted to call Steve over for dinner but I just didn't. I didn't want to really talk about anything work-related and now that we work for the same company that is about all there is to talk about considering we work so much. I just want to get out and think about something else for a change.
I was off yesterday and managed to actually get a written warning for breaking policy. It is the fear of the unknown that is driving me crazy. I want to KNOW where I stand at all times with all people in every aspect of life.
Thank god the weather is great. I'm really happy the nights have been so cool.
Thank god I can walk and hear.
Thank god I can see and speak.
People are dying of starvation and disease. Children are neglected. Animals are abused. People like me just run and run and run around the hamster wheel, worried about a write-up. It's kind of lame when you get down to it. There has to be more meaning to life.
I worked on my resume. Questioned a lot of shit. Ate some healthy food. Spent insane amounts of time on the internet but had fun talking to all my old friends. Something I did before I took on this job.
I wanted to call Steve over for dinner but I just didn't. I didn't want to really talk about anything work-related and now that we work for the same company that is about all there is to talk about considering we work so much. I just want to get out and think about something else for a change.
I was off yesterday and managed to actually get a written warning for breaking policy. It is the fear of the unknown that is driving me crazy. I want to KNOW where I stand at all times with all people in every aspect of life.
Thank god the weather is great. I'm really happy the nights have been so cool.
Thank god I can walk and hear.
Thank god I can see and speak.
People are dying of starvation and disease. Children are neglected. Animals are abused. People like me just run and run and run around the hamster wheel, worried about a write-up. It's kind of lame when you get down to it. There has to be more meaning to life.