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I'm always scared to let my guard down and relax. For some reason, as long as I can remember, I've always felt like doing and thinking the opposite (worst) scenario would keep me prepared for anything. Instead I'm always being extra hard on myself, dreading normal daily interactions with people, and not getting or giving as much of myself as I'd like, especially at work.
So today I feel okay. I am relatively content and I want to linger for a while in this head-space. Today is one day and I choose to be happy today and if something should happen that rocks my boat - oh well. I don't need to prepare for the worst anymore.
I guess when you prepare for the worst all of the time you leave little time to plan for the best.
Don't do drugs!
I just threw that part in there for no reason.
So today I feel okay. I am relatively content and I want to linger for a while in this head-space. Today is one day and I choose to be happy today and if something should happen that rocks my boat - oh well. I don't need to prepare for the worst anymore.
I guess when you prepare for the worst all of the time you leave little time to plan for the best.
Don't do drugs!
I just threw that part in there for no reason.