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What does it mean to have waves of intense emotions that change from moment to moment. One day I'm feeling, with total conviction, a certain way... then *poof* it subsides and I'm left wondering why I even felt that stupid feeling in the first place and move on to feeling something totally different. I don't know if it is just stemming from not knowing myself enough or something but it is really fucking annoying.
Sometimes it happens so often I start to worry that I'll never actually believe in any feeling I'm having.
Today I cried because I was bored. There are way heavier things to cry about but today it was from boredom. They say if you are bored then you are boring and if that is the case I am the most boring fucking person on the planet. Nothing is going on around here and I'm starting to get cabin fever. I'm also working this long work week and that takes its toll. I miss my friends. I miss talking. I miss laughing. I know I should just go out and like... meet new people or something but that sounds atrocious.
On the plus side (pun intended) I went shopping for clothes today. I have lost nearly 30lbs now and all plus sized clothing is just a little too big. This is a wonderful thing to me because, believe it or not, I don't like being fat. Also, I don't know if anyone has tried that Bitten fashion line by Sara Jessica Parker - but I've bought a few pieces and they are super fucking cheap and kinda cute. Yeah...
That's it. Carry on (My wayward son).
Sometimes it happens so often I start to worry that I'll never actually believe in any feeling I'm having.
Today I cried because I was bored. There are way heavier things to cry about but today it was from boredom. They say if you are bored then you are boring and if that is the case I am the most boring fucking person on the planet. Nothing is going on around here and I'm starting to get cabin fever. I'm also working this long work week and that takes its toll. I miss my friends. I miss talking. I miss laughing. I know I should just go out and like... meet new people or something but that sounds atrocious.
On the plus side (pun intended) I went shopping for clothes today. I have lost nearly 30lbs now and all plus sized clothing is just a little too big. This is a wonderful thing to me because, believe it or not, I don't like being fat. Also, I don't know if anyone has tried that Bitten fashion line by Sara Jessica Parker - but I've bought a few pieces and they are super fucking cheap and kinda cute. Yeah...
That's it. Carry on (My wayward son).