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May 4, 2019
I've written 4k words for the next chapter, but they feel boring. But! I can't tell if they are actually boring or if it's just that they aren't the resolution. It's very easy for me to imagine the reader complaining.
I'm reading a book that emphasizes what was my number one rule when I started writing this story: Don't care what anyone thinks about it but yourself. Also: Write what you love. Those were both my goals.
Though now the story seems to have a life of its own, and I need to resolve the things that were set up. And it might not be as fascinating? But I can't tell if that means Im doing it wrong or if I've just been at it for so long that nothing about it seems interesting to me anymore.
Oh, well, I've promised myself to finish, so I damn well am going to finish, even if it takes the rest of my life. I sure hope it doesn't! But I do believe it will be good practice to get to the end.
My other big problem is that I keep making the story more and more complicated. And I hear the critical voices yelling at me to cut out half of it, and to just STOP with the internal monologue already. And to ignore the side characters and for the love of God, just get to the end!
I maybe stalled for two months because I wasn't sure if the next scene was around a campfire or not. And I was scared to just start writing it out to see--I do best when I just write, when I trust to my intuition and whatever connection it has to my unconscious and just go with it. But it's scary. It's not logical, it's not helped much by thinking, it's just faith in something I cannot see. And it's easy to lose faith.
I'm fascinated with learning about the different Jungian cognitive functions, and I wonder how a person's writing process might be affected by what function is primary, whether it be intuition or thinking or feeling or sensing. I guess I have a vague hypothesis that someone who leads with thinking would be more likely to plan and outline everything.
I should have been a research psychologist. I'll pencil it in for my next life.
Okay, I should get back to the story. It's just frustrating how long it takes me to get anything to happen. Iim going to try spicing up the current mess of a chapter and see if I like it any better. And I'll remind myself: Write what you love. Don't care what anyone else thinks.
Okay? Okay.
I've written 4k words for the next chapter, but they feel boring. But! I can't tell if they are actually boring or if it's just that they aren't the resolution. It's very easy for me to imagine the reader complaining.
I'm reading a book that emphasizes what was my number one rule when I started writing this story: Don't care what anyone thinks about it but yourself. Also: Write what you love. Those were both my goals.
Though now the story seems to have a life of its own, and I need to resolve the things that were set up. And it might not be as fascinating? But I can't tell if that means Im doing it wrong or if I've just been at it for so long that nothing about it seems interesting to me anymore.
Oh, well, I've promised myself to finish, so I damn well am going to finish, even if it takes the rest of my life. I sure hope it doesn't! But I do believe it will be good practice to get to the end.
My other big problem is that I keep making the story more and more complicated. And I hear the critical voices yelling at me to cut out half of it, and to just STOP with the internal monologue already. And to ignore the side characters and for the love of God, just get to the end!
I maybe stalled for two months because I wasn't sure if the next scene was around a campfire or not. And I was scared to just start writing it out to see--I do best when I just write, when I trust to my intuition and whatever connection it has to my unconscious and just go with it. But it's scary. It's not logical, it's not helped much by thinking, it's just faith in something I cannot see. And it's easy to lose faith.
I'm fascinated with learning about the different Jungian cognitive functions, and I wonder how a person's writing process might be affected by what function is primary, whether it be intuition or thinking or feeling or sensing. I guess I have a vague hypothesis that someone who leads with thinking would be more likely to plan and outline everything.
I should have been a research psychologist. I'll pencil it in for my next life.
Okay, I should get back to the story. It's just frustrating how long it takes me to get anything to happen. Iim going to try spicing up the current mess of a chapter and see if I like it any better. And I'll remind myself: Write what you love. Don't care what anyone else thinks.
Okay? Okay.