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so some girls from home died earlier this morning. i didn't know them personally, but it still hit me pretty hard. i don't want to imagine how their families are feeling right now. nobody deserves to go at age 21...especially on your birthday. i've been really distracted all day just because i've been thinking about how life can end in a matter of seconds. even if you're sober, someone else might not be. if you're careful, someone else might not be. driving is basically handling super heavy and powerful machinery. i hope these girls' deaths came quick and painless. the sad part is that one of them (i don't really know much about the other one) had like 3 jobs and was a college student and wanted to be a model. this girl was actually going somewhere in life. she had ambition and drive, while so many of us are lazy asses and we're still alive. what am i going to contribute to the world? why does god keep me alive? it makes me so much more anxious to find my purpose.
i can't really think of anything else to write right now. i feel so sad, especially for since i know one of the girls brothers. i hope he's handling this okay. i don't really know what "okay" means but whatever it is, i hope he's okay. fuck man....i thought i hated being in cars before. now it's gonna suck even more.
p.s. BOTH drivers of the 2 cars involved were under the influence. i have one thing to say to them. I HOPE YOU RELIVE THE CRASH IN YOUR MIND EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.
that is all.
i can't really think of anything else to write right now. i feel so sad, especially for since i know one of the girls brothers. i hope he's handling this okay. i don't really know what "okay" means but whatever it is, i hope he's okay. fuck man....i thought i hated being in cars before. now it's gonna suck even more.
p.s. BOTH drivers of the 2 cars involved were under the influence. i have one thing to say to them. I HOPE YOU RELIVE THE CRASH IN YOUR MIND EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.
that is all.