HAPPY 492ND ANNIVERSARY! 8D
This time years ago, I was terrified. I was two weeks into the scariest part of my life yet: my first year away from the place I grew up and was therefore (however begrudingly) familiar with. I didn't know what I was doing; I'd hardly saved any money; I couldn't find a job.
However, I was on the eve of the first and only Harry Potter release party I'd ever attended. Borders, downtown, midnight. July 20th (though, technically, July 21st), 2007.
Before all of that, though, there was a girl.
Back in the good ol' days (lol) of GreatestJournal, I ended up posting to and browsing the animeaddme community. And I found this one post that I couldn't quite ignore, and I wasn't even quite sure why. Of course, since GJ bit the dust several months ago and silly me forgot to save it, I no longer have the post. I do, however, have my comment on it, as well as the reply.
pekori: FAKE, puppyshipping, Depeche Mode. Squee~ I want to add you even though we wholly disagree on Stephen King. Add backs? (We're also the same age and that sort of surprised me because everyone I meet (not even just here!) is always younger than I am XD)
vicious_lullaby: Ahhh, fellow puppyshipper?! ♥♥ I really don't care what your opinion on King is; if you're a puppyshipper we will get along. xD; Especially since you also like FAKE and Depeche Mode~~.
You're added. ♥
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I am pretty sure I've told this story zillions of times, reposted those words just as many, but... they're important. They were the launchpad for what's become one hell of a fucking journey. (I sort of feel like I've had a bit too much of Mr Saturn's coffee/Tenda Tea - and, I promise, you will understand that soon, love.)
At this point, I could get into the gritty details. I could talk about all of our plans, and how they've changed, evolved, broken and been rebuilt into something entirely new (and yet still very much the same) over all of this time. I could get into all of our countless all-night gigglefests over bondage bakeshops, Gundam Soup with Nappo, and the rules of Kubo edition Scrabble. I could also just sit here and copy and paste months' - years' - worth of conversations over AIM and let those do all of the talking for us (because the phone calls have been filled with so many laughs I would not know where to begin). I think, though, that it's best if I just try using my own.
It feels like so much longer than two years. We know this; we've talked about it. It doesn't make it all any less surreal, though. That two people could just stumble upon each other like that, at such a seemingly random time. That, of all the horrible things that happened to me and around me during and because of that time, I would still do all of it again.
Because it gave me you.
And I know you are why I was meant to go there. You are why I am meant to be here.
I hope this all sounds crazy. I want everyone to know just how crazy I am for you. How crazy I have been for you. How crazy I always will be for you. Because you are mine, you always have been mine, and you always will be mine.
If there is anyone who could get me to believe in reincarnation again, it is you - there is absolutely no way I have not known you for eons longer than just a simple two years. And there is absolutely no way I could ever love you enough in just this one lifetime.
So, what I've got here for you is, at best, a crossection of our life together. In some ways, it's a little out of order. Then again, even that is sometimes more than fitting. They're words that describe how I feel as well as how I've felt, so there is a lot of love, courage, friendship and gratitude, but there are also hints of fear and pain, because, well, we both know that this has been anything but easy. And maybe this all seems thrown together, maybe the transitions are clumsy and the story makes no sense (not enough vowels, clearly ♥). But...it says a lot of things I don't trust myself to say properly, too. And I hope that they do.
But, mostly, I hope you know that I love you. And that there is nothing I am looking forward to more than next month and you in my arms. Except, maybe, all of the rest of the days I get to have you there after that. ♥
You know what? There was no need for me to Rickroll you. How did we defeat the undefeatable? XD
However, I was on the eve of the first and only Harry Potter release party I'd ever attended. Borders, downtown, midnight. July 20th (though, technically, July 21st), 2007.
Before all of that, though, there was a girl.
Back in the good ol' days (lol) of GreatestJournal, I ended up posting to and browsing the animeaddme community. And I found this one post that I couldn't quite ignore, and I wasn't even quite sure why. Of course, since GJ bit the dust several months ago and silly me forgot to save it, I no longer have the post. I do, however, have my comment on it, as well as the reply.
pekori: FAKE, puppyshipping, Depeche Mode. Squee~ I want to add you even though we wholly disagree on Stephen King. Add backs? (We're also the same age and that sort of surprised me because everyone I meet (not even just here!) is always younger than I am XD)
vicious_lullaby: Ahhh, fellow puppyshipper?! ♥♥ I really don't care what your opinion on King is; if you're a puppyshipper we will get along. xD; Especially since you also like FAKE and Depeche Mode~~.
You're added. ♥
---
I am pretty sure I've told this story zillions of times, reposted those words just as many, but... they're important. They were the launchpad for what's become one hell of a fucking journey. (I sort of feel like I've had a bit too much of Mr Saturn's coffee/Tenda Tea - and, I promise, you will understand that soon, love.)
At this point, I could get into the gritty details. I could talk about all of our plans, and how they've changed, evolved, broken and been rebuilt into something entirely new (and yet still very much the same) over all of this time. I could get into all of our countless all-night gigglefests over bondage bakeshops, Gundam Soup with Nappo, and the rules of Kubo edition Scrabble. I could also just sit here and copy and paste months' - years' - worth of conversations over AIM and let those do all of the talking for us (because the phone calls have been filled with so many laughs I would not know where to begin). I think, though, that it's best if I just try using my own.
It feels like so much longer than two years. We know this; we've talked about it. It doesn't make it all any less surreal, though. That two people could just stumble upon each other like that, at such a seemingly random time. That, of all the horrible things that happened to me and around me during and because of that time, I would still do all of it again.
Because it gave me you.
And I know you are why I was meant to go there. You are why I am meant to be here.
I hope this all sounds crazy. I want everyone to know just how crazy I am for you. How crazy I have been for you. How crazy I always will be for you. Because you are mine, you always have been mine, and you always will be mine.
If there is anyone who could get me to believe in reincarnation again, it is you - there is absolutely no way I have not known you for eons longer than just a simple two years. And there is absolutely no way I could ever love you enough in just this one lifetime.
So, what I've got here for you is, at best, a crossection of our life together. In some ways, it's a little out of order. Then again, even that is sometimes more than fitting. They're words that describe how I feel as well as how I've felt, so there is a lot of love, courage, friendship and gratitude, but there are also hints of fear and pain, because, well, we both know that this has been anything but easy. And maybe this all seems thrown together, maybe the transitions are clumsy and the story makes no sense (not enough vowels, clearly ♥). But...it says a lot of things I don't trust myself to say properly, too. And I hope that they do.
But, mostly, I hope you know that I love you. And that there is nothing I am looking forward to more than next month and you in my arms. Except, maybe, all of the rest of the days I get to have you there after that. ♥
You know what? There was no need for me to Rickroll you. How did we defeat the undefeatable? XD