maybe now you'll understand severity.... i'll sum it up with the best amount of brevity
so yeah its been a hell of a long time and i ain't got much to say... it seems that even though things are getting harder in my life i feel as if i don't have to worry anymore. i mean sure i get down sometimes but its always temporary and i come through feeling stronger and more willing afterwards... don't know how to explain it. either im growing more numb to all the stupid bullshit or am i growing stronger? i have no clue. i seem to be be slowly falling apart physically but thats ok cause hey even the mona lisa is falling apart. things that didn't used to bother me seem to be getting more painful... but the worse it gets the more i don't care. its interesting. but i'm fucking surviving and i'm gonna look into seeing if i can get a small loan to get a newer motorcycle so that i have some good reliable transportation for once. oh and as soon as i move out of my stupid "garage-free" apartment and into a house that has a garage i am getting a 1974 Datsun 260Z and its FREE thats right F-R-E-E FREE! it doesn't run right now but it has everything. it needs the fuel system cleaned out the carbs rebuilt and the standard fluid flush and then shockls and tires and i'll have another reliable transportation method except this one will have 4 wheels ac and heat.... so it will be nice. then im gonna look into getting a 4 wheel drive again. you know for those weekend "good-times" so what are you in for? "GOOD TIMES!" hell yeah. well i'll be getting internet soon so i'll be updating more often. later days