praise god
and i mean that seriously.
i just had one of the best moments i've had in... well... ever. i was walking back from my spanish composition, which i felt pretty good about, after skipping psychology. and i was thinking about next year... wondering about where/with who i will be living, wondering if i will be dating someone at that time, wondering about my major, wondering about friends. and walking down the steps i said to myself "everything will work out with the people in my life, because god has brought love into my life up till now and will continue to bring love into my life. everything with chris will happen the way it is supposed to, and no matter what i can be proud of that relationship. if it goes no where, it is ok. the right man will be in my life when he is supposed to be, and the right friends will do the same" then i thought "i should declare a bio major, pre-vet. god puts passions in different people for different reasons... passion for the law, passion for people, passion for education, passion for success in business. god has put into me compassion for his creatures, a passion for science, a love of the earth and all that is in it. i can't deny that these are the things i love, and that this is what i'm meant to do." and suddenly i wanted to cry, tears welled up in my eyes. i could feel god all around me, inside of me, surrounding me and overtaking me, and it was so unexpected. i still want to cry, tears of joy for the power of my creator, my savior, my hope, my lord. i have not felt god in my life for so long, and i felt him today in a way that i had all but forgotten.
i can't even put into words how i feel right now. this is how life is supposed to be.
i just had one of the best moments i've had in... well... ever. i was walking back from my spanish composition, which i felt pretty good about, after skipping psychology. and i was thinking about next year... wondering about where/with who i will be living, wondering if i will be dating someone at that time, wondering about my major, wondering about friends. and walking down the steps i said to myself "everything will work out with the people in my life, because god has brought love into my life up till now and will continue to bring love into my life. everything with chris will happen the way it is supposed to, and no matter what i can be proud of that relationship. if it goes no where, it is ok. the right man will be in my life when he is supposed to be, and the right friends will do the same" then i thought "i should declare a bio major, pre-vet. god puts passions in different people for different reasons... passion for the law, passion for people, passion for education, passion for success in business. god has put into me compassion for his creatures, a passion for science, a love of the earth and all that is in it. i can't deny that these are the things i love, and that this is what i'm meant to do." and suddenly i wanted to cry, tears welled up in my eyes. i could feel god all around me, inside of me, surrounding me and overtaking me, and it was so unexpected. i still want to cry, tears of joy for the power of my creator, my savior, my hope, my lord. i have not felt god in my life for so long, and i felt him today in a way that i had all but forgotten.
i can't even put into words how i feel right now. this is how life is supposed to be.