conquering fears.....

[peggy_lawrence]

There was this HUGE spider in my room.. and I'm talking HUGE!! (I even took pictures to prove it) and guess what.. I killed it! Yeah I'm totally scared of spiders.. they freak me out.. the fact that ehh... I don't even care.. they are scary and gross and EWWW! I HATE them.. well anyways I walk into my room and its on the ceiling.. and I started bawling.. like a lil baby.. but that doesn't matter cuz I killed it! I called up my friend Kathy.. they told me she was at Adams (thats her boyfriend) and so I call there... its only ya know.. 10 at night... but I was SOOOOO scared that I didn't even care.. and I knew that she would understand how freaked out I was.. I was crying and hysterical... iono I just HATE spiders.. I will start crying and hyperventilating (however the F u spell it) its just bad... very bad.. I ran away once because of a spider.. yeah and wouldn't come home until my mom BOMBED the whole house.. so she had to leave work and get the stuff, bomb the house and I made her show me empty cans before I would step in it! Proven Fact.. ask her! Yeah thats how much I hate spiders.. I can handle the little bitty ones.. but I've heard a lot about HOBO spiders.. I don't know what the hell they look like or act like but I HEARD that they are aggressive.. and I've been chased around my room by a F'ing spider! No shit! Swear to GOD! but this guy that was at my work.. well he asked me for a ciggarette then kinda didn't leave.. he showed me some bites that he had... yeah they are GROSS! and they eat your flesh and you have to have shots.. doesn't suprise me that you could DIE!!! Yeah I don't wanna die because of a f'ing spider.. I wanna die doing something cool... like getting laid or something.. but this is how much I hate spiders.. I can ramble on about how much I hate them.. but I have better things to do... gloat about killing that damn spider.. and cry because he prolly has friends and relatives.. just waiting.. waiting to kill me.. or eat me alive.. ehhhh.........great.. now I will NOT be able to sleep!! Well... I'll stay on Myspace.. cause thats the shit now! Yeah its mass cool! Its cool like lemonade on a hot summer day.. or something like that! Oh yeah and guess what.. I'm dying my hair blonde.... for the mommy... cause I love her... and she thinks that all the guys I think are hott (like all from Coretta Scott) aren't that cute.. they're punk... thats what she said.. and "is that guy wearing make-up" YEAH HE'S WEARING MAKE UP DUMBASS.. AND ITS SEXY.. thats exactly what I said.. oooooooooohhhllalalalalalala! The hottest guys off of coretta scott is Josh, Preston and Seth.. yeah if I had any ONE of them.. mmm.. the things I'd do.. no really tho.. guys in bands are HOTT! I don't even care.. but the cutest one I would have to say is... PRESTON! cause he has this picture of him and his dog... ehh its sooo cute! U should check it out.. you'd drool.. so bring a napkin.... I can't explain how hott he is.. I seriously can't.. his eyes.. hahahahhahahahhaha N-EWAYZ! I'm just playin..
We came up with the conclusion today that i'm a "pimp" I'M NOT A PIMP! I JUST GOT HO'S IN DIFFERENT AREA CODES.. hehe no but really they think that I'm a player.. I don't think that I'm a player.. I just think that I like variety... like some people like just peperonni pizza.... I'd rather have olives, onion, mushrooms, extra cheese, pineapple, chicken... come on now... hehe maybe not all on one pizza.. but you get my point.... hehe No I don't play around.. if I don't like you.. I'd tell you... and if I did.. I wouldn't tell you... but u'd know... I'M NOT A PLAYER THOUGH!!!!!! I can be faithful.. I swear.. if I had a boyfriend.. I would be faithful.. I'm really good at being faithful.. its just the whole getting a boyfriend thing.. see I really don't want one.. wow I'm rambling... this is the point where I say goodbye... goodbye!