Sep 12, 2005 16:07
my life is sooo fucked up!! So I went to alfies, then to kims then to a party out in Montesano... alright.. met a couple cool guys.. whatever.. well then yesterday Keith txt's me and was like "did you have fun at the party" and I was like "yeah! I had a blast" (his best friend was there.. and told him) and he asked who I slept with... i didn't sleep with anyone.. and I told him "I didn't sleep with anyone that night!" and he's like "that night.."
EXCUSE ME!!!!!!!! I haven't slept with anyone except for the night that I slept with HIM! Yeah okay.. thats the last person that I had sex with.. and it was him.. Hey guess what.. I"m not A SLUT! I won't just find you and fuck you.. and WHY would it even matter? but he was all upset.. like he sounded sad adn everything.. so I was gonna go pick him up and hang out with him... well I ditched Kim and Don.. then keith called me and he was like "i'm just gonna go to bed" and so we talked on the phone for a while.. i asked him what he wanted. he said he doesn't know... well WAHT THE FUCK.. am I just suppose to sit around and wait?? Cause that Won't happen! He told me that I should try and be faithful... who am I being faithful too?! And I haven't had sex with anyone besides him.. and I haven't even kissed anyone... I go to parties.. whatever.. doesn't mean that I'm a fucking slut bag whore that likes to fuck everyone she sees.... I'M SORRY I CAN'T BE THAT GIRL!!!! The girl that everyone looks at and goes "slut" yeah if you knew me.. u wouldn't say that.. I've slept with people.. everyone has.. but I don't go to extremes.. and I don't go out looking for a lay.. he said that I should just pick one guy.. what guy?? HIM?? I tried.. he doesn't want me.. so with being friends with all these guys, I must be sleeping with them.. hm.. yup thats what I am doing...I'm just soo pissed off.. I just wish that he'd quit playing games.. he can't have the cake and eat it too.. I tried to stick with one guy.. and he didn't want me.. so piss off!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sick of people talkin shit... if you have something to say.. SAY it.. but don't do it over the phone.. do it to my face.. cuz knowing me.. I'll turn around and hit ya! I'm not fuckin around anymore.. I've had enough of everyone's shit..