Eating disorder
I'm beginning to think that I might have an obsession with my weight, and it might be leading down the path to eating disorder. Not sure if it's the exam stress or what...
I can go on days without eating a proper meals, with the most being a cup of oats or some vegetables. I would brush away the feeling of being hungry and try to study and not think about it (of course failing cause i'll keep thinking about food).
Then I'll realise that i do need to eat, and then either eat something really unhealthy / eat at some insane hours.
After which, I'll proceed to feel really bad about eating it, and trust me, if i didn't try hard enough, I would actually go to the toilet to purge it out of my stomach.
Wth is wrong with me. I just went to mcdonald's two days in a row. Now i feel like i'm secreting oil everywhere, not to mention a nauseating feeling and an intense urge to punish myself for eating mcdonald's.
I'm not going to have a proper dinner tonight and probably survive on oats tomorrow to make myself feel better...
I can go on days without eating a proper meals, with the most being a cup of oats or some vegetables. I would brush away the feeling of being hungry and try to study and not think about it (of course failing cause i'll keep thinking about food).
Then I'll realise that i do need to eat, and then either eat something really unhealthy / eat at some insane hours.
After which, I'll proceed to feel really bad about eating it, and trust me, if i didn't try hard enough, I would actually go to the toilet to purge it out of my stomach.
Wth is wrong with me. I just went to mcdonald's two days in a row. Now i feel like i'm secreting oil everywhere, not to mention a nauseating feeling and an intense urge to punish myself for eating mcdonald's.
I'm not going to have a proper dinner tonight and probably survive on oats tomorrow to make myself feel better...