Episode 122Brian had been running away from his feelings for months. He couldn't run anymore; his own words to Michael made him realize that
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You should’ve known better. You should’ve walked him back, made sure he was alright. Fuck, you should’ve taken him with you, Daphne be damned! You shouldn’t... shouldn’t have given in to him. He would’ve gotten over it soon enough. He knows you, after all. He would’ve smiled, just like that first night, when you embarrassed him in front of the dykes (And then you cracked a joke and he knew it was for him)... He would’ve kept coming back, stalking you, demanding your attention, challenging you... He wouldn’t have been attacked, hurt... and bleeding right now... if you hadn’t come.
Thank you! I usually fastforward this scene, it's so painful... But then I read your drabble and I couldn't shake it, I kept thinking about Brian being brave at last, and how the world proved to him that he should have stayed in his safety zone... and how I'd probably blame myself, too, if I thought that sb else paid with their life for me taking risk. I just had to write it down, for my own sanity.
ps So, as a thank you for awakening my comatose muse, would you like an X-mas drabble? Let me know, here, or here, OK? ps2 Do you still accept challenges? 'Cause I'd really love to see a B/J 'morning after' 513... *puppy eyes*
Oh, Brian totally blamed himself for what happened. And, IMO, not just in the "it wouldn't have happened if I hadn't danced with Justin" kind of way, but in a totally fucked up, "I don't deserve to be loved" kind of way. Like, in his mind, Justin getting injured was some kind of cosmic punishment for the fact that he had the nerve to let himself believe he might be able to have love. (Makes me want to re-animate his evil bastard father just so I can kill him again!)
I am still taking challenges, and I really do plan to try to write something for each of them. Just don't hold your breath waiting -- I got five challenges (yours will make six -- unless you give me more than one!) and I've only been able to finish one of them so far. But I have started on a couple of the others. What I'm saying is that I probably will write whatever you ask for, but it might not get finished anytime soon.
Anyway, just read my post here and post as many challenges as you can think of that fit my rules.
cosmic punishment for the fact that he had the nerve to let himself believe he might be able to have love. (Makes me want to re-animate his evil bastard father just so I can kill him again!)
Yeah, his parents really did a number on him... it's actually quite impressive he's functional at all.
Just don't hold your breath waiting it might not get finished anytime soon.
*laughs* Take all the time you need, I'm not going anywhere...
You should’ve known better.
You should’ve walked him back, made sure he was alright.
Fuck, you should’ve taken him with you, Daphne be damned!
You shouldn’t... shouldn’t have given in to him.
He would’ve gotten over it soon enough. He knows you, after all.
He would’ve smiled, just like that first night, when you embarrassed him in front of the dykes (And then you cracked a joke and he knew it was for him)...
He would’ve kept coming back, stalking you, demanding your attention, challenging you...
He wouldn’t have been attacked, hurt... and bleeding right now... if you hadn’t come.
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ps So, as a thank you for awakening my comatose muse, would you like an X-mas drabble? Let me know, here, or here, OK?
ps2 Do you still accept challenges? 'Cause I'd really love to see a B/J 'morning after' 513... *puppy eyes*
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I am still taking challenges, and I really do plan to try to write something for each of them. Just don't hold your breath waiting -- I got five challenges (yours will make six -- unless you give me more than one!) and I've only been able to finish one of them so far. But I have started on a couple of the others. What I'm saying is that I probably will write whatever you ask for, but it might not get finished anytime soon.
Anyway, just read my post here and post as many challenges as you can think of that fit my rules.
Also, I would love a B/J Christmas drabble!
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Yeah, his parents really did a number on him... it's actually quite impressive he's functional at all.
Just don't hold your breath waiting it might not get finished anytime soon.
*laughs* Take all the time you need, I'm not going anywhere...
I would love a B/J Christmas drabble
Anything specific? Episode, position, mood, POV?
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Post 513, either schmoopy (but still in character) or lighthearted and funny, and I don't really care about POV -- either Brian or Justin is fine.
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