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;-; Ahhh. I can't frickin' do my homework. Too worried. Stomachache. Eeee. T___T
I think Papa has cancer. From what I heard from Mom and Dad his condition is worse, he can hardly walk, aunt in chicago is really worried really worried but when I ask Mom she just says Papa's getting a biopsy tomorrow and I don't want to ask Dad because he's already way stressed out about it and I don't want to worry him and arrrrgh. He keeps looking like he's going to cry and I'm afraid I'm going to any minute now but I CAN'T because I don't want to worry him. Mom's asleep. I don't even know what's going on, so I shouldn't have to cry, but dammit. I shouldn't HAVE TO. I have no REASON to, this is like.. The only negative thing about life right now! I'm so much better off then most people, so I should just GET OVER IT. ><;
But I can't help but worry about what would happen if Papa did die, and I don't know. All I know is I'm scared, Micheal died and Dad was all depressed and aiii I don't know. x__x
But anyways. Ow. Ignore this entry, dun' worry. I'll end up doing something else in the next five minutes and become overly happy again. Heh. :D
I think Papa has cancer. From what I heard from Mom and Dad his condition is worse, he can hardly walk, aunt in chicago is really worried really worried but when I ask Mom she just says Papa's getting a biopsy tomorrow and I don't want to ask Dad because he's already way stressed out about it and I don't want to worry him and arrrrgh. He keeps looking like he's going to cry and I'm afraid I'm going to any minute now but I CAN'T because I don't want to worry him. Mom's asleep. I don't even know what's going on, so I shouldn't have to cry, but dammit. I shouldn't HAVE TO. I have no REASON to, this is like.. The only negative thing about life right now! I'm so much better off then most people, so I should just GET OVER IT. ><;
But I can't help but worry about what would happen if Papa did die, and I don't know. All I know is I'm scared, Micheal died and Dad was all depressed and aiii I don't know. x__x
But anyways. Ow. Ignore this entry, dun' worry. I'll end up doing something else in the next five minutes and become overly happy again. Heh. :D