Bah........
So here I am in SF...on Kim's 20th birthday party sitting at her house alone...i mean her friend is here getting her present ready and getting ready to go meet them at the bar but other than that its me alone. And while I feel bad at the same time Im proud of myself for not putting myself in a situationt hat I was really not comfortable. However i feel bad that its kims birthday and i drove all this way and im not with her.
So basically though most of the group is younger they are all out at a Bar at the moment getting plastered and im at home sipping a gross beverage. I just couldnt bring myself to be able to step into the bar. Im not comfortable drinking in a big huge group...and in a bar...it was just bad. I debated over and over and over again whether or not i was going to actually go...but I just couldnt bring myself to do it. Kim was sad. She wanted her girlies around her to celebrate and I just couldn't do it. I know some people are going to think im lame for not going but im not comfortable and camp has taught me many things, and one of which is if you are going to or do feel uncomfortable in a situation don't put or keep yourself in it. And after another issue I learned that you just can't ignore that anymore...you need to just deal with it and make it better because you never know what else will happen.
Anyways I think I might curl up on the bed...or just get jammies on and sit here and worry till the girls actually make it back here.....*sigh*
So basically though most of the group is younger they are all out at a Bar at the moment getting plastered and im at home sipping a gross beverage. I just couldnt bring myself to be able to step into the bar. Im not comfortable drinking in a big huge group...and in a bar...it was just bad. I debated over and over and over again whether or not i was going to actually go...but I just couldnt bring myself to do it. Kim was sad. She wanted her girlies around her to celebrate and I just couldn't do it. I know some people are going to think im lame for not going but im not comfortable and camp has taught me many things, and one of which is if you are going to or do feel uncomfortable in a situation don't put or keep yourself in it. And after another issue I learned that you just can't ignore that anymore...you need to just deal with it and make it better because you never know what else will happen.
Anyways I think I might curl up on the bed...or just get jammies on and sit here and worry till the girls actually make it back here.....*sigh*