Do you see the lack of enthusiasm or excitement or thrill that I have for my birthday?
It's an occasion I sadly look forward to just for the money that I get, which usually lasts me for about a year until it all disappears.
It's never really celebrated in my home, or maybe not as celebrated as other people's birthdays are.
Here's my last year's sad birthday story
*some of you already know it!
I woke up, feeling oh-so-bad, feverish and all that, and I had a splitting headache that I was strongly debating whether or not I should go to school. I went, and I received the usual shout-outs from teachers and my friends, and I got a gift from the obois, a pillow. aww... then we had to watch this fraternity flick in an airconditioned room, in the most uncomfortable seats, and this was the time when my fever peaked - when I could barely keep my eyes open, when my body was aching like hell, when I was so hot (haha, take it as you will), when I was in the worst mood, and I was beside two stick thin classmates who provided useless, boney shoulders to lean on. I endured through the whole movie with much suffering, until I went home, lying down in the car with my world spinning around.
I got home, and decided to sleep since there was no surprise for me at all. A few or so minutes passed and Nanay Nelly woke me up, and said that there was like some sort of salu-salo for the staff in my honor. So, despite my sad state, I went down to feel a little bit better about myself. However, I arrive in the downstairs living room to find it empty. There was a board with greetings in it, mountains of food, but no people at all. I sat on the couch alone, and looked around - nobody was there. This was during the height of the Davide impeachment when my parents were being booed at and and thrown all sorts of food by the mob when they were in the streets coz they thought my dad was the one who moved for Davide's impeachment when in fact, it was some congressmen from the House who didn't even consult with my dad. The staff were glued to the television, and I was alone in the salu-salo.
Nanay Nelly approached me, with an unlit birthday candle on a Red Ribbon chocolate cake with a "from Mommy and Daddy, Kc, and Manoy Ipe in it" and asked me if I wanted to blow the cake already. I looked around, and it was empty, and I decided to just get two pieces of puto, and go up to my room to sleep. My folks arrived half-past midnight, my birthday was over. They apologized, I was too sick to even care, and it was October 28. No family dinners coz my folks were busy - No party for my friends coz I didn't have time to plan it, no anything.
This is just one of the many sad birthdays I've had - and this year, I wasn't feeling too thrilled about it. Until... someone actually inspired me to celebrate it this year - and it was celebrated all right - and it more than makes up for my sad birthdays in the past. It made me forget about everything, and for once, I felt that it was my day - that everything would be about me! me! me! all me! birthdays, they say, only do come once in your life. by that I mean, you only turn 18, 19, 20, et al only once...
I had a countdown to my birthday, a day with Cam, a birthday dinner with my family, and a party! a Halloween party (not a masquerade! gezuz christ - what the fuck! i did not plan a masquerade party. haha!) and i had gifts galore, and I had dinner in Kai, and i spent the day with Cam, and all my friends were game to dress up for my party (especially the Macdonalds and the katulong couple who looked so cute together), and some even went even if there was school the next day, and I had so many surprises from my Sanngu Family, from Cam, from my siblings, and it was just all so, wow! Words can't even begin to describe how special my birthday was! And most importantly, I actually thought it was special...
*some pics from my party
Thank you for 18 wonderful years Lord! I've been through so many ups, and so many downs, but like I always say, the ups outweight the downs so much more. Thanks for celebrating with me guys! You made it memorable, and definitely and truly, worth my while!
Speaking of Birthdays, today is the birthday of one of my favorite Lasallians ever.
Happy Happy Birthday Isa Marfori aka Pringles! You owe me libre!! :D