Jan 03, 2006 22:24
This christmas break could not have been any more up and down than the sickest rollercoaster engineers thought to design. I have been so topsy turvey since I came home I can't even begin to explain it to you.
So I come home and everything is fine. My parents didn't really know I was smoking, they figured but they didn't really pay any atention to it. They told me, when they found out, that I could smoke outside or in the basement. So, after two days of being home I went outside to have a smoke, and I was on the phone with my boyfriend zach, and fucking, my mom came outside to let our four dogs out back and she started screaming at me about how smoke was getting into the phone and how stupid I was for smoking and etc etc etc...
So finally, giving up on caring about what my parents thought, I gathered my purse and coat and called melanie to come get me and take me out to go shopping, so I could cool down and my parents could cool down. I called around seven or earlier even, after just going out to eat with mel at a nice restraunt for free, and having a good day, just to let them know I would be home around nine thirty because I was going to see the fourth harry potter movie. My dad picked up the phone while I was in the middle of my message and started telling me about how all I do is make my mom cry and my grandma cry and all I am is a fuck up and I'm a piece of shit and etc..you know, my dad talks really nasty to me (kellie you heard that twenty minute message remember?) and he told me that I should just leave, pack my bags and get out, three or four days before christmas. So I did. I came home and packed my bags and left. I cried the whole way out the door and down the street to melanies car while my dad continued to follow me out the door screaming obsenities at the top of his lungs. I called zach and told him he was going to have a new roomate for a while.
While I was at zachs house I was at peace. I didn't contact anyone in my family for a couple of days, and I went to work on the 23rd and 24th. My grandma called me on the 23rd and asked me to come over. All she did was cry to me about mom and dad and me being disrespectful and I tried to explain to her how things went, but I don't think she cared, I think she just wanted the argument resolved. Christmas came and I went with zach to his parents, and to his grandparents (his grandmother kept trying to feed me I swear that woman wanted to stuff me like a turkey) and when we got home I called my house, total anxiety had me on edge the entire time. I got an angry call back from them, and I also got a call from my grandmother. After another day I called home again and my mom wanted me to come over. So I went over to my house and talked to them and resolved everything with my mom, my dad is currently ignoring me. The next day I went over again and opened chirstmas presents.
Then it was time to help zach move out of his apartment. That's a long ass story in itself. But I helped him move his whole apartment, and then I moved back into my house with my parents for two more days. Everything was smooth until last night.
See, zach moved out on new years eve. I went home and brought in the new year with my parents. New years day I spent at home with my mom. Then on the second, yesterday, I went to visit my aunt and uncle, who I hadn;t seen for about a year, they are having a baby and we went to visit and hang out and exchange overdue presents and stuff. I had a blast with them. We were drinking, talking about school, artwork, everything that interests me, they really wanted to hear about my life. I didn't get home til about ten at night, mind you I went over there early in the day. I called zach after I got home, and he was really..silent..on the phone with me. Everything he said, he said with an attitude, and I was just wondering what his problem was. I kept asking him what was wrong but he kept saying nothing, even though I knew better. Anywho, we ended up having a huge argument last night, and then this morning I woke up with a nasty message on my phone, so I got pissed and left a nasty message on his phone. It all ended up becoming one big gigantic puddle of mudd.
Argh.
I know it sounds stupid on paper. I left a ton of details out. All I can say is I never look forward to the holidays, this is always what happens.
I'm tired of people.
On the plus side I got tons of presents...actually..I'd give them all away just to have one nice holiday with my family friends and loved ones.
But I guess to anybody, any god or presence that may watch us over..it doesn't matter.
Merry Christmas everyone, I love you all and miss you all.
Happy New Year.
Hez
P.S.
Kellie, I miss you too. :( *sniff* noone to complain to anymore! YOU BETTER CALL ME
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