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I think this is the time when I find out the real me. How I can put up with bein alone, how I can deal with friends not being good friends. How I deal with having no friends. I think this is a huge test, not a test but like a phase to help me become how strong i used to be. I am beginning to search for different characteristics in my friends of the future. I wanna have nice, sweet friends, not ones who are crazy and just look for fun. I'd like to have a romantic boyfriend, one who treats me like I am more than just a friend with free puss. I wanna be a wife, a mom, someone everyone can count on. I will try hard to become a nicer, sweeter person. I am so critical and just want everyone to think I am cool or funny. I know I am lol I don't need to try anymore. But I don't think that will be easy, let's see what happens. I dress more like a girl because that's what i wanna be when i grow up, a wife and a mother. I am pretty serious about going to the army. This is the only time in my life where I am not tied down to shit. It's nice to know that no matter what I do with my life or the decisions I make that my family will support me no matter what. Maybe not at first but they know I know what's good for me. I figured out why I never hung out with girls, they are so much into fuckin guys or old loves its ridiculous! Be your own fuckin person. That's why i turned to guys, they are so much stronger. They are able to be alone. Every girl has so much baggage and continues to carry it around. I used to think I was the most sensitive person I knew, but its not true, these girls are so soft. They can't even keep away from old flames. Especially when they are assholes. Its funny too, that the only people who call me happen to be male, they might just want my puss or they just care more for me then stuck up bitches. Awwww poop on a ravioli.