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Mum says i don't have good hygiene.
after the weird night with john I wrote him letting him know we should definitely have a talk and if he never responded then I guess we will never talk.
he never responded.
i was think of writin him to tell him a little about how I feel, then realized if he's bein a dick now what makes me think he will change?
i love him but hate his lifestyle.
i think I need to stop.
I have 2 options
1. Get the fuck over him
2. Tell him how I feel and see what happens
I think I have decided between them, number one will make my life so much better and make me so much stronger, and to know that I can just push someone out of my life that doesn't do me any good even tho I want them in my life SO bad, feels nice. I know if anything is meant to be it will happen.
I am getting so good at finding friends worth having. I think I should be some kind of counselor, I usually have the best advice.
Spiderman is on my chin now :c )
They call it "hardware" at work and some call it mutilation.
I think that's my thing, I like to do something crazy in the midst of getting rid of an old flame. I know I am not as happy as I once was, but I am trying so hard.
Ashley- do whatever you want, it's yer life. I look back on all the fuckin mean postings we put up on live journal a few yrs back, that shit was harsh. But now I feel like even though you are a huge part of my life and I won't agree with a lot of the decisions you make, it's your life and I will listen and help when I am needed.
The old german lady at work kinda made me realize that. One decision I made makes her perception of me change completely and that's not right. I should love the person someone is for who they were when I met them and who they become because, frankly, I believe every ones heart stays the same all their life for the most part.
I will not get involved with only children anymore. They are mostly selfish.
I finally mustered the guts to eat bleu cheese whole. it made my day so much nicer :c )
We are in August, 20 days till school. I can't fuckin wait!
Haven't looked at myspace whatsoever since i deleted it. Tyler told me yesterday that I disappeared off of it completely, whoopie!!
after the weird night with john I wrote him letting him know we should definitely have a talk and if he never responded then I guess we will never talk.
he never responded.
i was think of writin him to tell him a little about how I feel, then realized if he's bein a dick now what makes me think he will change?
i love him but hate his lifestyle.
i think I need to stop.
I have 2 options
1. Get the fuck over him
2. Tell him how I feel and see what happens
I think I have decided between them, number one will make my life so much better and make me so much stronger, and to know that I can just push someone out of my life that doesn't do me any good even tho I want them in my life SO bad, feels nice. I know if anything is meant to be it will happen.
I am getting so good at finding friends worth having. I think I should be some kind of counselor, I usually have the best advice.
Spiderman is on my chin now :c )
They call it "hardware" at work and some call it mutilation.
I think that's my thing, I like to do something crazy in the midst of getting rid of an old flame. I know I am not as happy as I once was, but I am trying so hard.
Ashley- do whatever you want, it's yer life. I look back on all the fuckin mean postings we put up on live journal a few yrs back, that shit was harsh. But now I feel like even though you are a huge part of my life and I won't agree with a lot of the decisions you make, it's your life and I will listen and help when I am needed.
The old german lady at work kinda made me realize that. One decision I made makes her perception of me change completely and that's not right. I should love the person someone is for who they were when I met them and who they become because, frankly, I believe every ones heart stays the same all their life for the most part.
I will not get involved with only children anymore. They are mostly selfish.
I finally mustered the guts to eat bleu cheese whole. it made my day so much nicer :c )
We are in August, 20 days till school. I can't fuckin wait!
Haven't looked at myspace whatsoever since i deleted it. Tyler told me yesterday that I disappeared off of it completely, whoopie!!