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[peenksham_pain]

so ive come to the conclusion i need to be alone for a while. it isnt anything pointed directly to anyone in particular besides myself. its just how it has to be. with so many thoughts like the ones ive been having lately and all the heartache ive gotten myself wrapped up in, being with someone in such a significant way is just pointless for me. high school romance is just something i dont feel i should worry about. most of it is just an easy way for people to build relationships with others. but it brings with it the risk of losing something extremely special. someday far from now perhaps ill be able to let myself love again... once i learn to let go and once that one special person comes along who can help. just not now-

if you're lost
you can look
and you will find me
time after time
if you fall will catch you
i'll be waiting
time after time
if you fall I will catch you
i will be waiting
time after time
time after time.

after your picture fades
and darkness has turned to grey
watching through windows
i'm wondering if you're okay.