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nobody realizes now that im the same person... everybody has this joint thought that maxine has indeed gone a little insane... im going to go cuddle up with huhbeebee (my only friend who happens to be the puppy im taking care of while ericas "on vacation") and try my hardest to avoid these few things that hurt me oh so much:
-chris guidry being mad at me
-jake blaming me for everything bad under the sun and that has to do with his existance
-my best friend with a penis convincing wanting himself to hate me and fall back in love with someone he knows isnt right for him (ohk i know it isnt my place to say anything but if you all knew what a horrible position he put me in.... he just isnt the same anymore... its disgusting and i miss the old him)
-my sister lying to my dad and telling me that if im not blonde tan and wearing abercrombie im ugly or weird
-my mom going away again
-having to be the perfect daughter a.k.a. elected housekeeper
-being overweight for my height and needing to "hit the weights" but not wanting to
-the entire school assuming they know who i am now...
-and if i could name everything im sure id make myself seem even more pathetic
tonight im going to go to jodis<3 party and fake my disgusting smile again but all the while try to make the most of it... im a lost case at this point-
-chris guidry being mad at me
-jake blaming me for everything bad under the sun and that has to do with his existance
-my best friend with a penis convincing wanting himself to hate me and fall back in love with someone he knows isnt right for him (ohk i know it isnt my place to say anything but if you all knew what a horrible position he put me in.... he just isnt the same anymore... its disgusting and i miss the old him)
-my sister lying to my dad and telling me that if im not blonde tan and wearing abercrombie im ugly or weird
-my mom going away again
-having to be the perfect daughter a.k.a. elected housekeeper
-being overweight for my height and needing to "hit the weights" but not wanting to
-the entire school assuming they know who i am now...
-and if i could name everything im sure id make myself seem even more pathetic
tonight im going to go to jodis<3 party and fake my disgusting smile again but all the while try to make the most of it... im a lost case at this point-