God who is this Person????
Last night all I could do was lay in bed and scream at God, I hate him right now... I hate what he's done to me and what he's doing to me.... Who does he think he is????? I can honestly say I'm ready to leave here.... Not to worry I'm not going to do anything stupid, like kill myself.... But why??? Why has he done this to me??? There are so many people who don't care about their dads but I did so why did he take mine???? Why did he have to give me a shitty mother who doesn't give a F*** about me, why couldn't I have got something better, don't I deserve better??? Appearntly not!!! If God doesn't think I deserve better than why am I even living????? My "best friend" doesn't even think I deserve him to be my friend.... I'm so F-ing tired of people doing things and saying things to me that hurt, really bad, but yet I'm not suppose to be hurt by it b/c I'm Elissa I don't get my feelings hurt................... If someone out there thinks I'm talking to them, then maybe you did it and I didn't realize it??!! I'm so sick of everything, of school, people, and I'm espically sick of all this Graduation shit........... I think its so sad that even at my own graduation party my parents won't even be there..... I have to pay for my own party b/c my parents aren't even here....... I'm sorry if you think I'm having a pitty party, but I don't care, stop reading, these are things I've kept in for many yrs..... I'm just sick of keeping it in, lets face reality for just one min. I'm human and I'm hurt............... I have no friends and I feel like I have nothing.......... So why and I here?????????????