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Well, I've had ALL day to think, and as nice as it is, my mind is beginning to run amuck. My family will be leaving soon, we're going out to dinner, and then onto the fair. I'm sorry, but I'm not really excited at the prospect of walking around the fair. Every year we go, every year I want a goat, and every year I come home empty handed. So far this summer I've asked for a goat, cat, and a turtle, yet I have nothing but the bird that hates me and the dog that won't let me be.
I guess this entry has been coming for awhile, but now it's time, because in the past week I've found myself smiling while talking to a guy. I tell you I really enjoy talking to him, and I'm looking forward to getting to know him better. He's a great guy, with so many good qualities. I'm really nervous about getting involved in too much of anything with him (even friends), as every time I talk to him and think that I might be interested in going out on a date with him, another girl begins to talk about him again. I'm so busy being afraid that he's only talking to me to be a nice guy- charity case or something. He says he's not, and he also says he can't wait to meet me, and I find myself wishing time would fly, just at the opportunity of spending time with him. He's had it tough, just like I have, and I already know I'll never be pushed to do something I don't want to while around him. I just don't know... I feel almost as if I'm crazy, like I shouldn't be feeling this way. I don't want to get excited about talking to a guy, yet when I talk to him, I am.
I've spent so much of today thinking about him, and wanting to get to know him more, calculating time in my head. I feel crazy though. I'm not looking for a relationship- just a chance with a guy I consider to be above most.
I dunno... I just don't know... but that's all I have to say right now...