I don't understand what I'm doing

[peebz]

 I do things I don't want to do, and don't do the things I DO want to do.
Anytime I set myself a goal, I miss it on purpose.
It's like, I don't want to move forward.
I guess I don't. 
I do things to annoy myself.
I give in to peer pressure far too easily.
I never stick up for myself.
I can't think straight anymore.

I need a break.
Like a sleep all day, sleep all night, break.

A break from work, college & myself.