It may be long, but it's the last one ever.
I'm merely writing this entry out of respect to my fellow livejournalians. Recently, I've reevaluated my livejournal practices only to discover that the best thing I can do is to stop all such activity. I came home one day, deleted all of my friends, took livejournal off of my bookmarked pages, and attempted to delete all my entries. It was then that I realized that there were too many entries to do so and I was incedibly too lazy, as you all know.
The reason for such a drastic measure, you see, is due to me actually looking at my life and changing what I don't like about it. Livejournal is an amazing tool to keep friends in touch, have witty comments flying back and forth, verbally assault someone in a sexual manner and have it be legit, as well as post deep thoughts and epiphanies (contrary to some people's roasts of such a concept). But what it has turned into for me was an unhealthy obsession; addiction, if you will. No day would pass without a few trips to http://www.livejournal.com/users/Peeayouell as well as similar such sites. I have a difficult time adapting to the fact that my audience as a whole seems to not be changing, but each individual changes more than any one could notice. Upon returning home and noticing how many people have changed and many people certainly have not, it strikes me as profound that people are not conscious of either with regard to themselves; that is to say whether or not people have changed in their own minds is completely subjective. Livejournal leaves very little room for my own personal expansion. ...no, that's not a fat joke.
It surprises me, as well, as some of my friends and I have discussed, how social roles affect a given situation. Many times, whilst reading livejournals (and even writing some entries) I've noticed how predictable certain things are with an individual in a group setting. I hate that I see interactions/exchanges in such a way, but--despite the theraputic efforts to rid myself of such a perception a la pre-Salem Witch Trials--I unfortunately still do.
I've written before about my feeling of "close, but no cigar" and how that phrase seems to hold true a remarkable number of times in my life. Well, it's been true one too many times. I look at my life and I don't know what to think; most things I've wanted come to me with chunks missing by the time they get to me. You see, Matilda figured out how to use her mind to bring things to her, and she got those exact things. That's what I want; not the ability to move things with my mind (though that would not be turned down...ever), but the ability to have an outlook for my future and actually fulfill it as I see it.
This here entry is not a bashing of livejournal or the experience that I've had. If you think that, let me say this: "No no no no no no. No. ...No. You're wrong." It is some of the thoughts I have as to why I will no longer be a part of such a clan. As I look forward, it is quite arduous to clearly find out what my forecast on life looks like while I obsessively check up on the lives of others. "Why do that when I can check up on lives in other ways?" Good point, Paul. "Thanks."
One of the biggest motivators for this entry is my realization of such: (1) I enjoy expressing myself through my hands (on the keyboard...AND on the bed! Aha! No, I'm just kidding, typing is just better than writing by hand.) and (2) livejournal helped to exhibit how making an ass out of yourself via writing can be quite amazing, but the personal gratification (no...not masterbation...however............) is much more important than the public gratification associated with journaling live. There will be more typing on my part, but not for the public eye.
And now, for some advice:
1. Some people haven't discovered that you can block anonymous comments but still get mad when people badger them via their own livejournal; give me a break.
2. Know the audience that you're addressing. Often times, so much energy is put forth while creating an entry, but the audience at the time is not willing to take in what you have to offer. This sad truth can be avoided by snatching your audience by the neck with your talons and force-feeding them.
3. Show all parts of your personality, not just the stereotypical part that everyone already knows. The best livejournals are the ones that encompass many emotions, not just depression, for example.
4. Enjoy writing your entires. If you begin to fade away, just leave.
5. Stick with it. If you truly enjoy your livejournal experience, don't partially abandon it. Life lesson #27: Never do a half-ass job, because no one enjoys only half of an ass.
And with that image, I will leave you.
Later.
P@u1
The reason for such a drastic measure, you see, is due to me actually looking at my life and changing what I don't like about it. Livejournal is an amazing tool to keep friends in touch, have witty comments flying back and forth, verbally assault someone in a sexual manner and have it be legit, as well as post deep thoughts and epiphanies (contrary to some people's roasts of such a concept). But what it has turned into for me was an unhealthy obsession; addiction, if you will. No day would pass without a few trips to http://www.livejournal.com/users/Peeayouell as well as similar such sites. I have a difficult time adapting to the fact that my audience as a whole seems to not be changing, but each individual changes more than any one could notice. Upon returning home and noticing how many people have changed and many people certainly have not, it strikes me as profound that people are not conscious of either with regard to themselves; that is to say whether or not people have changed in their own minds is completely subjective. Livejournal leaves very little room for my own personal expansion. ...no, that's not a fat joke.
It surprises me, as well, as some of my friends and I have discussed, how social roles affect a given situation. Many times, whilst reading livejournals (and even writing some entries) I've noticed how predictable certain things are with an individual in a group setting. I hate that I see interactions/exchanges in such a way, but--despite the theraputic efforts to rid myself of such a perception a la pre-Salem Witch Trials--I unfortunately still do.
I've written before about my feeling of "close, but no cigar" and how that phrase seems to hold true a remarkable number of times in my life. Well, it's been true one too many times. I look at my life and I don't know what to think; most things I've wanted come to me with chunks missing by the time they get to me. You see, Matilda figured out how to use her mind to bring things to her, and she got those exact things. That's what I want; not the ability to move things with my mind (though that would not be turned down...ever), but the ability to have an outlook for my future and actually fulfill it as I see it.
This here entry is not a bashing of livejournal or the experience that I've had. If you think that, let me say this: "No no no no no no. No. ...No. You're wrong." It is some of the thoughts I have as to why I will no longer be a part of such a clan. As I look forward, it is quite arduous to clearly find out what my forecast on life looks like while I obsessively check up on the lives of others. "Why do that when I can check up on lives in other ways?" Good point, Paul. "Thanks."
One of the biggest motivators for this entry is my realization of such: (1) I enjoy expressing myself through my hands (on the keyboard...AND on the bed! Aha! No, I'm just kidding, typing is just better than writing by hand.) and (2) livejournal helped to exhibit how making an ass out of yourself via writing can be quite amazing, but the personal gratification (no...not masterbation...however............) is much more important than the public gratification associated with journaling live. There will be more typing on my part, but not for the public eye.
And now, for some advice:
1. Some people haven't discovered that you can block anonymous comments but still get mad when people badger them via their own livejournal; give me a break.
2. Know the audience that you're addressing. Often times, so much energy is put forth while creating an entry, but the audience at the time is not willing to take in what you have to offer. This sad truth can be avoided by snatching your audience by the neck with your talons and force-feeding them.
3. Show all parts of your personality, not just the stereotypical part that everyone already knows. The best livejournals are the ones that encompass many emotions, not just depression, for example.
4. Enjoy writing your entires. If you begin to fade away, just leave.
5. Stick with it. If you truly enjoy your livejournal experience, don't partially abandon it. Life lesson #27: Never do a half-ass job, because no one enjoys only half of an ass.
And with that image, I will leave you.
Later.
P@u1