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I dont know why, but i've felt kind of depressed lately. I can't pinpoint the source, which is troubling me. I've been guzzling nyquil just to fall asleep before 1 am almost every night. Not seeing Courtney as much as I want probably isn't helping.
Maybe i'm just sick of talking on the phone with her for 2 hours a day, when only 30 minutes are spent bitching about how we never see eachother. I feel bad because all I seem to do is complain and repeat myself. I'm sorry for annoying you or whatever, but since you never say anything about it, i'd rather at least hear myself talk then just have dead silence.
I'm sorry you feel like crap about it but there isn't much we can do, except tough it out till summer. I'm sorry if i was "boring" you or whatever, but i just hate this phone bullshit.
It seems all i ever do i rant about stuff i cant change, so maybe ill just shut the fuck up for awhile. I hate it when you feel bad, I'm not trying to make you feel bad, and you know that.
goddamnit, i dont know what to do anymore...I liked it when you were actually talking about this kind of crap with me, I felt i actually got you to open up a little, then you just stopped. You always say you dont know what to think, but i know that cant be true because you have to have SOME sort of opinion about it...
To add to the massive drama:
Now Jeff is pissed at me because i "bashed" him, even though i really didn't mean to. He's telling me how he isn't and not to listen to Nick (wich i dont). I feel bad for saying he's super closed minded, but i always thought he was.
Maybe i'm just sick of talking on the phone with her for 2 hours a day, when only 30 minutes are spent bitching about how we never see eachother. I feel bad because all I seem to do is complain and repeat myself. I'm sorry for annoying you or whatever, but since you never say anything about it, i'd rather at least hear myself talk then just have dead silence.
I'm sorry you feel like crap about it but there isn't much we can do, except tough it out till summer. I'm sorry if i was "boring" you or whatever, but i just hate this phone bullshit.
It seems all i ever do i rant about stuff i cant change, so maybe ill just shut the fuck up for awhile. I hate it when you feel bad, I'm not trying to make you feel bad, and you know that.
goddamnit, i dont know what to do anymore...I liked it when you were actually talking about this kind of crap with me, I felt i actually got you to open up a little, then you just stopped. You always say you dont know what to think, but i know that cant be true because you have to have SOME sort of opinion about it...
To add to the massive drama:
Now Jeff is pissed at me because i "bashed" him, even though i really didn't mean to. He's telling me how he isn't and not to listen to Nick (wich i dont). I feel bad for saying he's super closed minded, but i always thought he was.