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This really just hit me. I don't think I would ever be able to hold up a regular relationship like everyone eles. I mean it's not like I don't want to. Because trust me I do. I mean I want to have that feeling where you've been with someone for so long, and you care about them so much. I don't know. I know so many people who have been in a relationship for like years, and I envy them so much.
I don't know why. I mean like, am I missing a piece of brain or something that everyone eles has except me? Maybe it's just that I can't find anyone compatable with me yet. I mean I know a lot of nice guys, but I guess they're just not my type.
In fact, I don't know what is my "type". Maybe I need someone like the guy in my dream..( ; ] you guys know what I'm talking about right? ; ] )..or maybe himself. But I think if it were him, I think it would be just like "Stanley and Stella" except that we'd fight all the time.
I don't know, this just fustrates me sooo much. I wish it wouldn't.
Oh and during my sleep on Thursday night-Friday morning, I had the BEST FREAKIN dream. Too bad I can't say what or who, but it was awesome. It was like a good/sad dream. And the weird thing is, it felt so REAL, I mean I could feel him holding me, and his warmth, and like I was very emotional today after that. And whatever I said to him, I felt like I meant it...with all my heart. Like if anything were to happen to him [in my dream] I'd probably would've cried my eyes out and all that other things that I do when I'm really emotional. It sucks though, because the guy in my dream...is totally different from me. I don't see a reason as to where our paths in life would cross...even I think it would be an experience if it did...And when I saw him today, I wanted to HUG him SO bad, like I wanted to sorta feel what I had felt in my dream, but then it would've been weird between us...cause he's dumb and I'm crazy..-__-
Edit: I can picture myself getting married to someone I don't love what-so-ever...and then end up having the most horrible life ever!
Oh wells, who knows.
Yeah I'm just ranting about my HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE love life. : ]
I don't know why. I mean like, am I missing a piece of brain or something that everyone eles has except me? Maybe it's just that I can't find anyone compatable with me yet. I mean I know a lot of nice guys, but I guess they're just not my type.
In fact, I don't know what is my "type". Maybe I need someone like the guy in my dream..( ; ] you guys know what I'm talking about right? ; ] )..or maybe himself. But I think if it were him, I think it would be just like "Stanley and Stella" except that we'd fight all the time.
I don't know, this just fustrates me sooo much. I wish it wouldn't.
Oh and during my sleep on Thursday night-Friday morning, I had the BEST FREAKIN dream. Too bad I can't say what or who, but it was awesome. It was like a good/sad dream. And the weird thing is, it felt so REAL, I mean I could feel him holding me, and his warmth, and like I was very emotional today after that. And whatever I said to him, I felt like I meant it...with all my heart. Like if anything were to happen to him [in my dream] I'd probably would've cried my eyes out and all that other things that I do when I'm really emotional. It sucks though, because the guy in my dream...is totally different from me. I don't see a reason as to where our paths in life would cross...even I think it would be an experience if it did...And when I saw him today, I wanted to HUG him SO bad, like I wanted to sorta feel what I had felt in my dream, but then it would've been weird between us...cause he's dumb and I'm crazy..-__-
Edit: I can picture myself getting married to someone I don't love what-so-ever...and then end up having the most horrible life ever!
Oh wells, who knows.
Yeah I'm just ranting about my HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE love life. : ]