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Its 1:33am and im so tired but i cant sleep.
I went out to dinner with Tim last night.
I was nervous; there are so many things that run through my head whenever i go out with him. I think its that way with all ex's for everyone. you want them to think you are pretty, funny, creative, exciting, you want them to miss you, but you want them to think that you dont miss them. It was exhausting. We went to olive garden which was cool because i havent been there in ages. When heather and matt and i used to go out everyday we would almost always go out to dinner, i kind of miss it. I was so poor all the time but at least i was out doing something. I feel like i do now is lay around the house with the dog. im a lump. Saturday tim and i made plans to go mom day shopping. I think i'll get mary flowers this year. Its not very creative or original but shes hard to shop for.
Tomorrow I hope i dont have to go work for the madines. Its nice having extra money but its tedious work and after work at T&L im tired and ready for a nap. Katy wont be there tomorrow either :(
Im going to try something new tomorrow. I heard about this drink that cleanses your system. You have to fast while doing it, which might be hard but the drink is warm water, juice from a lemon, maple syrup and cayanne pepper. I made it tonight as a test and it was really good, no joke. you are supposed to take a natural laxitive like some herbal tea or something since there is no fiber in it at all. I keep reading about it on websites and people who add comments to the recipe are very happy with it. One women said she felt more energized and her skin looked better. I think it wouldnt be a bad thing to get all the toxins out of my body. I think it might help me quit smoking to. The mental addiction is hard enough to get over without having to go through nicotine withdrawl. Maybe i'll get all that nasty stuff outta me and it'll be easier. we'll see. I have to take a vitamin too, since there is little nutritional value in this witchy drink im going to start making. One in the moring, one at work, maybe 2 at work, and 3 later that evening. We'll see how long it lasts. Hopefully for once in my life i can have some willpower.