Trapped.
Kirk got into Cincinnati, I think hes happy about. He called me and told me while i was on my way to work today. It really didnt sink in that he was actually leaving until i got off the phone, and then i started to cry. Im going to miss him so much. Him leaving is only the beginning of everything wrong thats going to to blow up in my face eventually. I just dont know what to do with myself, with my life. Ive been so screwed up ever since highschool ended. Sometimes i really wish I could go back and do things all over again but i cant and it hurts. My life now isnt bad i have a puppy and a great boyfriend but i hate school and i have no idea where i am going to be in 2 years. If rob and i broke I dont know if i could handle it. I would have to move back home. The fact that i dont go out alot anymore is masked by the fact that i live with someone who loves me. Im afraid if it doesnt work out between rob and i everything i hate about my life is going to come to the forefront and i wont be able to concentrate on anything else. Im in a really dark mood, i hope this passes.