And ... we're back.

[pedalinfaith]

And how glad I am to be back.

The last 6 months have been damn intense.
Shortly after my last post, Habiba was diagnosed with esthesioneuroblastoma (an aggressive, rare kind of type sinus cancer). By the time it was caught it was already Stage 4 (there is no Stage 5) and had wended its way down into her right lymph nodes, up behind her eye and into

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[schmecky]

There is so much to say that is so hard to put words to, the only thing coming to me clearly is that I'm so glad you got some pleasure from Weeds...

Welcome back :)

[pedalinfaith]

Thanks. It's great to see you. I've thought about you while I've been away and have been hoping that job/house/relationship/career have been sailing along swimmingly for you. I'm looking forward to catching up on your life.

And, yeah, Weeds is my new favorite escape. :)

[bananadiameter]

I'm so glad to hear from you. I've been thinking about you both and hoping for you, and I'm glad to hear such positive news.

Welcome back!!

[pedalinfaith]

Hey, there! Great to "see" you again too. I hope these last six months have been good ones for you. And I'm looking forward to catching up.

Wow you two have been through the wringer...

[journeyrose]

My love and I met on a Wed, and on Sat I was in the hospital for the beginning of an ordeal. So we can relate. It is wonderful that you two have each other for this--and yes, you will pull through :)

Re: Wow you two have been through the wringer...

[pedalinfaith]

Thanks for the encouraging words. What a way to start! I'm glad to hear that you two found a silver lining as well.

[clarsa]

There is a grace that comes only from great suffering. Mostly all people see is the grace. I've learned to be in awe of those people, and not to envy them. I have some vague idea of the price they paid for it. Sometimes I am grateful for the grace I don't have. But I believe the scars from those times are the only jewelry you can carry with you between lives. They shine as medals of honor on the soul.

I am sorry for your suffering. I am in awe of how you (both) shine.

[autumnalmonk]

I wish I could have said this. There is both profound wisdom and deep beauty in these lines and I sincerely second them.

[pedalinfaith]

What beautiful sentiments. I love the way you wrap your mind around things, and bring out little nuggets I hadn't considered.

In a way, this experience has been good for us as a couple. Some friends have been kinda surprised that we would stay together, having only been dating for 6 months before this kicked in. But, in a way, it was good timing. We have that momentum of being fresh in love, with none of the baggage to make us hesitate, and yet ready for something to deepen our connection and solidify our commitment to each other.

I hope all is well in your world. The last I recall, you were off continent. Uh oh, a quick peek at your journal where I last left off and oh my! What you've been through lately as well.

As usual, your deep wisdom comes from deep experience. I hope to catch up on your journal and comment in a more appropriate place.

Hugs.

[autumnalmonk]

I can't imagine what this has been like for you, but I am very glad that you have found your way through it- and that you are appearing here again.

May blessings and wonders continue to unfold for both you and Habiba...

[pedalinfaith]

I think even I am only beginning to get a sense of what it was like. As soon as I heard the news, I went into "OK, let's do it" mode. I got breaks here and there with the help of family and friends, and moments of meltdown. But not many.

It's amazing what resources we can find within ourselves when called, especially to help someone we care about.

Hope you and your sweetie have been well these last 6 months and are feeling right at home Down Under.