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So I've been thinking. Its been awhile since I could be completely relaxed. I mean I always have some concern and some worry in the back of my head. When is this fight coming up who am I fighting am I ready? Will my next check cover this bill? Oh shit I got to get that fixed on my truck I wonder how much that will cost. When will I get some sort of a career based job going? When can I move out? Why do I do this to myself? Why is it that way? What are they saying about me? What I'm trying to say is even when I don't have something to worry about I think of something I can be worried about and I'm getting sick of it. Even if I was like well fuck all of it there is too much shit to just give up. I'm just tired of trying because its just more stress.