I listened to that CD about 49 times in a row...

[pecosita]

almost the end of september already. how the hell? i really think i hit that age in which you constantly look back and say, where did the time go. except i'm still hip so i like to curse while doing it. this semester is kicking my ass real hard- all my classes are really difficult and i'm not so sure for the first time if i can pull this off. ive had hard classes before, but not like this. this is really overwhelming. plus with this being my first semester having to pay rent and make a lot of money, its extra stressful. my school schedule and work schedule arent friends, they dont like to play nice. then i have A4E rehersals and stuff and i feel bad that i cant be flexible with when i can reherse, because its causing tensions in the group, but theres nothing i can do. i wish i could hang out around 86 central more, cuz i feel like i never see TGS and when i do come home i'm usually exhausted or want to talk to neesy. i havent sent any emails to mexico in a long time, and i miss them a lot too. i'm trying to find a job in another country that does not have widespread internet usage, so that as you can imagine is a handful as well. so yea, i never was really good at juggling. i can get the 3 balls up in the air, but i can usually only catch two. and even if i do get it right for a little bit, i never can do more than 2 or 3 rounds. and then what am i left with? 2 hacky-sacks on the floor and one in my hand. dang. i also want to go visit costa sometime this week, hes in the hospital again for hopefully his last round of chemo- yay! but i have no idea when i'm going to find the time...

i think i'll feel better after this month. when i can show myself that i can do it, even though its hectic as hell, i think i'll feel less overwhelmed. well, thats assuming i can do it and dont flunk out of school and get kicked out my apartment and lose all my friends by the end of the month. shoot. yea, shoot.

-Sara