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honestly part of me wants to move. i want to move to NY where all i focus on is my career. there are so many distractions. theres so much going on. the other night...raised so much chaos/confusion, but why? i wish that people would stop lying. i wish i could trust someone. anyone. i wish that people meant the things they said. im having a hard time letting her go. i will admit that. part of me knows i still love and miss her. ive kept a lot to myself. right now i just dont know. i feel like i just need to step away from everyone. i havent been to sleep yet. i need to go.