Dec 27, 2004 11:53
I have go to stop convincing myself i am madly in love with guys i do not know! its totally not healthy for me. pour example: 1. joey levin 2.HIM(post-joseph, pre-summer stock.) 3. my new object of horniness(haha...so stole that from sloppy firsts).....cambell.....or is it spelt like with a p? i dunno. ok to get the hole cambell thing we totally have to back track to bout a week ago.
ok so cambell is this really hot 15-yr-old i kinda half met in cuba-as in i hadnt said one thing to him,....but i totally flirted(actions speak louder then words?!?!!?!?). and he has like gorgeus blonde long-ish hair...but not like weiners..thicker. and blue blue eyes. and omg....total surfer hottie(ew i sound so stereotype-teenage-girlish)and i didnt even need carly to get buddy-buddy with his sister b/c i already did!lol any1 hoo gets it. his sisters name is bailey...shes a grd 7er at baythorn...and has bigger boobs then me. i swear his sister is HOTTER then me, and shes like 2 yrs younger. y am i the one blessed with tiny ass tits? but shes sooo nice!
the reason i didnt like talk to him? oh yah...total lack of self-confidence, i swear..i need to like be told im pretty or somethign like immediately b4 i like become a raging depressed teenager who listens to like scary death music(even tho i highly doubt that...im way too happy to be ever be depressed)
i also met this girl....rebecca..also in grd 7(at ventura) omgosh! shes so cute. she goes to summer stock, u could so imagine my reaction. i was like omygosh ur a summer stocker, i love u!!! and then it hit me and i was like omg u no HIM!
anyways back to cambell.....so im like walking along the beach(i did that a lot this time in cuba..all by myself, having x-rated fantastys bout cambell...jks jks) and i was like why the fuck dont i ever have the courage to like talk to him? rite...and its like the last full day there and this cuban guy, alex(18) comes up to me and starts talking to me ands hes all like want to be my g/f..and i was like get the fuck away from me( he did have abs..not to mention a golden tooth...ew) so i was like i have to go for dinner, which doesnt exactly seems necessary at 4 o clock in the afternoon. so like as im leaving he gies u know ur beautiful, u have beautiful eyes.which would normall make me SA-WOON..only i know hes only saying that to either a. take advantage of my body, including my petty boobs! or b. take my money.
anywys on the plane bak cambell so kept brushing past me...and i was like yayers for me.
p.s...the fact that the first thing my mom said to me after i made buddy buddy with bailey, dont u think her brother is cute. Go make friends with him. i swear she is psycic.
uumm... what else bout cuba? omg! i made friends with these 5 and 6 yr olds. they r so cute. theyre names r sarah and sammy. when i had to leave to come back to the land of snow they told me theyd miss me and kissed me!! aaw i miss em already.
and for my grand finale:
heres when i realized that not a bazillion cambells could make up to what happened yesterday. i saw HIM!!! at the airport. i was like omg! i swear my hole face turned red in bout like 3 seconds.
i didnt really say anything. i was way embaressed. the most embarassing is he totally saw me! and i didnt say anythign i just left. but ti was so a sign. b/c if everything happened as planned then id have missed him by an hour. buut b/c our plane was 5 seconds late some1 stole our gate. so we had to wait an extra hour to get off the plane. thus making me see HIM! flutter.
and an even bigger milestone in our(non-exsistant) relatioship...i finally left a message in the guestbook.
"hey HIM!! i saw u at the airport yesterday..i wouldve said hi but my dad was being all nerotic israeli-ish and making us rush. the songs r great! keep up the good work..haha i sound like a school teacher! bye
-yael "
thats all. i think. it probably isnt. toodles. ciao.