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i typed down a really long entry a while ago, and i wonder why it didn`t make it. it was about things i dislike.
& bipolarity.
& dishonesty.
& two-facedness.
& missunderstandings.
i explained them all quite well.. something i`m not going to do now.
anyway, i don`t really understand all the events going on in my head. i have been going like this for a few days. i noticed that the more i pay attention to the things going on in my room, the colder i start to feel. i look at people and i analyze, re-analyze and over-analyze the situation. i begin to drift away and distance myself. i am going back to the old me, it seems. i`m not sure on if to be happy about it, or angry. i`m feeling a few batches of jealousy, and every time i can feel the features on my face change. my eyebrow narrow, my eyes begin to seal, my lips curl with disgust. i`m not that happy anymore. i`m also not the jealous person.. but in this case i`m amazed at how jealousy just fired up within my frame. i don`t like it much, i must admit. it corrodes my feelings and attacks my inner self.
i`ve decided that as of january 1 this journal is going to be friends-only. i`m sorry, but that`s just the way it is.
my new year`s resolution: (...)
& bipolarity.
& dishonesty.
& two-facedness.
& missunderstandings.
i explained them all quite well.. something i`m not going to do now.
anyway, i don`t really understand all the events going on in my head. i have been going like this for a few days. i noticed that the more i pay attention to the things going on in my room, the colder i start to feel. i look at people and i analyze, re-analyze and over-analyze the situation. i begin to drift away and distance myself. i am going back to the old me, it seems. i`m not sure on if to be happy about it, or angry. i`m feeling a few batches of jealousy, and every time i can feel the features on my face change. my eyebrow narrow, my eyes begin to seal, my lips curl with disgust. i`m not that happy anymore. i`m also not the jealous person.. but in this case i`m amazed at how jealousy just fired up within my frame. i don`t like it much, i must admit. it corrodes my feelings and attacks my inner self.
i`ve decided that as of january 1 this journal is going to be friends-only. i`m sorry, but that`s just the way it is.
my new year`s resolution: (...)