Dec 02, 2004 21:58
lol. i just got a really fun email. even though i probably shouldn't say anything- i've been inspired to ask a question:
*do you remember the night we walked the harbor and you confessed everything about your relationships and how you wished you could just find someone who could understand? do you remember when i told you you found them when i hung out with your girlfriend for the first time? or do you even remember talking about your family and about how not even they could understand you? how you felt they didn't care? they didn't want to know who you were? well even if you forgot, i didn't. and i remember the hugs you freely and willingly gave me almost every day for months. i remember sitting in your living room and eating pizza with you and walking around town with you and you yelling at me to quit smoking. i remember when you used to hang out with shin, i remember when i first saw you at a show. i remember the night i got a ride home with you from tim and them from the backstage. i remember being your friend. i guess i was just wondering if you remembered too...
but now that i'm thinking about it- i don't care. you chose family, and that i understand and that i can respect. just please, don't lie about what you thought of me and what you used to say because then you'll have a reason to feel guilty when you see me. and guilt isn't healthy darling. not one bit.
i'm glad we're all growing up. you guys can rush the process if you'd like. i'm just going to enjoy the present.
i wish i were as dumb as you think because then i wouldn't understand.
and i wish i never cared like you say because then it wouldn't even matter.
but i am what i am and not many other people have a problem with me.
stretch your wings and fly high above it all, tonight you can soar above the clouds
goodnight<3