...warning...
Ok don't read this if you don't wanna hear someone bitch. cuz i'm annoyed. and sometimes i feel like this is the only place that i can let it all out. so if you have a problem with this type of entry, please skip it. thanks.
Ahh i am SOOO stressed out right now. Seriously, i can NOT take living at home anymore. I think i'm going to go crazy. I have never missed anoyone as much as i miss all those wonderful people that i have met in oswego. and to top it all off, i just don't think they feel the same way. they are all still with each other. they prob think, oh just one person is gone, doesn't matter cuz there's still like 20 other people. but once you get home, all alone, you really realize that you miss those people cuz there is NO ONE around. i have NO ONE. and to make matters worse, i feel like i am being replaced. they have new friends to make up for my spot. kate, jenny, and robin have this thing called the dynamic trio. it should be kate, jenny, and ME! we're the trio. we always have, now i have been replaced.
so i wanted to go up to oswego tonite, cuz i don't have to work until 6 tomorrow. i left a message with the girls, but i kinda got the feeling that they didn't want me to come up. if i go up, then the girls most likely wouldn't be able to go to the bars. so i kinda feel like they don't want me to come up cuz then they can't do what they want to do. i told them that if they had a problem with that to let me kno. they didn't, but i kno that's what they're thinking in the back of their mind. it sucks, cuz last year it totally would've been ok becuase everyone lived on our floor. we partied on the floor like every weekend so it didn't matter if we were 21 or had an id or whatnot. now, everyone goes out to the bars tho. like every nite. literally. kate, jenny, and robin go out to the bars at least 3 times a week. no lie. so i would def be hindering what they could do on the weekend. omg i'm rambing.
anyways... something bad happens when i feel unwanted. i will start distancing myself. idk why i do this, but i do. before you even kno it, i will have no desire to talk to anyone from oswego. so i hope this doesn't continue.
i hope my stupid life gets better.
Ahh i am SOOO stressed out right now. Seriously, i can NOT take living at home anymore. I think i'm going to go crazy. I have never missed anoyone as much as i miss all those wonderful people that i have met in oswego. and to top it all off, i just don't think they feel the same way. they are all still with each other. they prob think, oh just one person is gone, doesn't matter cuz there's still like 20 other people. but once you get home, all alone, you really realize that you miss those people cuz there is NO ONE around. i have NO ONE. and to make matters worse, i feel like i am being replaced. they have new friends to make up for my spot. kate, jenny, and robin have this thing called the dynamic trio. it should be kate, jenny, and ME! we're the trio. we always have, now i have been replaced.
so i wanted to go up to oswego tonite, cuz i don't have to work until 6 tomorrow. i left a message with the girls, but i kinda got the feeling that they didn't want me to come up. if i go up, then the girls most likely wouldn't be able to go to the bars. so i kinda feel like they don't want me to come up cuz then they can't do what they want to do. i told them that if they had a problem with that to let me kno. they didn't, but i kno that's what they're thinking in the back of their mind. it sucks, cuz last year it totally would've been ok becuase everyone lived on our floor. we partied on the floor like every weekend so it didn't matter if we were 21 or had an id or whatnot. now, everyone goes out to the bars tho. like every nite. literally. kate, jenny, and robin go out to the bars at least 3 times a week. no lie. so i would def be hindering what they could do on the weekend. omg i'm rambing.
anyways... something bad happens when i feel unwanted. i will start distancing myself. idk why i do this, but i do. before you even kno it, i will have no desire to talk to anyone from oswego. so i hope this doesn't continue.
i hope my stupid life gets better.