darling, darling, darling...
you can't ever have the things you want in life if you're too fucking scared to take the first step. I swear I used to be more intelligent than this. I swear to fucking god that I used to actually go after the things I wanted. I didn't used to be such a fucking passive person. I'm so scared of losing the things I love that I don't even try. It doesn't fucking work that way. I can't seem to find a middle ground. I started not sharing my feelings because it chased a couple of people away. Now the opposite is causing problems. I can't ever seem to get it right.
I'm thinking a lot. I do that too much. I just don't really get the point. I think I'm partially insane. I have a lot of leftover issues that I try to get through, but some stuff doesn't just heal...even after years. I don't really know how to work through them, either. I think I'm doing pretty well for myself. I'm proud of myself for not being locked up in a mental institution. I also haven't really hurt any other people...at least not that I know of. I really do try and do the best for other people that I can.
I've been listening to Courtney Taylor-Taylor on repeat. the last time I saw the Dandies, they played the longest version of this song I've ever heard.
I'll take all the blame, if I ever want to, for what my little brain has been through. I know I say things I never meant to, to seem a little more sane, cos that's what it takes. If I ever could win, if I ever could see, if I just could ever remember to think about anything.
Darling, give me a rope, I'll hang myself. It doesn't take a genius to figure it out. Don't have to be fucking brilliant to see, I'm not as smart as I seem to be, I'm not as bright as I used to be, I'm not as sharp as I think I am, I'm not as smart as I seem. I'm not as bright as I seem.
work didn't call today. I've decided that if they do fire me, I'm going to write a book. It's about god damn time.
so I have a good question for all you bastards out there on the internet. if I were to write a book about my life, and they adapted it into a movie, who would you cast as me? and who would you cast as yourself (assuming you're significant enough of a role in my life to make it into the movie)?
I'm thinking a lot. I do that too much. I just don't really get the point. I think I'm partially insane. I have a lot of leftover issues that I try to get through, but some stuff doesn't just heal...even after years. I don't really know how to work through them, either. I think I'm doing pretty well for myself. I'm proud of myself for not being locked up in a mental institution. I also haven't really hurt any other people...at least not that I know of. I really do try and do the best for other people that I can.
I've been listening to Courtney Taylor-Taylor on repeat. the last time I saw the Dandies, they played the longest version of this song I've ever heard.
I'll take all the blame, if I ever want to, for what my little brain has been through. I know I say things I never meant to, to seem a little more sane, cos that's what it takes. If I ever could win, if I ever could see, if I just could ever remember to think about anything.
Darling, give me a rope, I'll hang myself. It doesn't take a genius to figure it out. Don't have to be fucking brilliant to see, I'm not as smart as I seem to be, I'm not as bright as I used to be, I'm not as sharp as I think I am, I'm not as smart as I seem. I'm not as bright as I seem.
work didn't call today. I've decided that if they do fire me, I'm going to write a book. It's about god damn time.
so I have a good question for all you bastards out there on the internet. if I were to write a book about my life, and they adapted it into a movie, who would you cast as me? and who would you cast as yourself (assuming you're significant enough of a role in my life to make it into the movie)?