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Jesus, this takes me back to being a whiny high school student with a major axe to grind....
Not sure if anyone will even read this (as most of my lj friends have abandoned this medium, like me until now) but I was feeling nostalgic and wanting to write for the sake of writing
So much has happened and I guess you could say changed, but I still feel like I'm searching and despite being an obsessively social person, I seem to live most of my days in relative solitude at work and at home, I just go about the tasks at hand and very rarely hang out with friends for the hell of it, and when I do, it just doesn't feel the same as it did back in the bleary college days of inside jokes and dining hall crushes...
As a student (high school or college, really) I'd be so jealous of my future self (real-time me). But maybe its just getting older and getting a bit jaded, I miss the urgency, the controlled insanity, and the righteousness of being new to this world. I don't know when or how my perspective shifted, but I miss that girl. She was really something....
Not sure if anyone will even read this (as most of my lj friends have abandoned this medium, like me until now) but I was feeling nostalgic and wanting to write for the sake of writing
So much has happened and I guess you could say changed, but I still feel like I'm searching and despite being an obsessively social person, I seem to live most of my days in relative solitude at work and at home, I just go about the tasks at hand and very rarely hang out with friends for the hell of it, and when I do, it just doesn't feel the same as it did back in the bleary college days of inside jokes and dining hall crushes...
As a student (high school or college, really) I'd be so jealous of my future self (real-time me). But maybe its just getting older and getting a bit jaded, I miss the urgency, the controlled insanity, and the righteousness of being new to this world. I don't know when or how my perspective shifted, but I miss that girl. She was really something....