its been a while
iv been rereading a little bit of this journal and it made me so full of emotion i felt i had to post. the bliss that was in my heart a year ago is gone. i love my life now, and i know i have made healthy decisions since then...but i miss being in love and carefree. i want to find my "parallel" again. and the saddest part, the very worst, heart wrenching part, is that it will never again be in tom. he has changed so much in this past year, i barely recognize him. everything irrational that i rationalized for him is back to basics. he is completely out of control. maybe i am, too. every day i wake up, run errands, go to work and then smoke weed. its a calm life for the summer but i know it is all about to change.
going back to new paltz is going to be fulfilling. i miss my friends and my life and i even miss classes. i changed my major: from english to communication disorders. theres drama at school though. the guy i was hooking up with at the end of the year and into the summer is living next door to me in my dorm. if that's not bad enough, he's living with 5 guys from a DIFFERENT frat then he's in and that probably aren't going to like him. and i'm friends with these guys. AND. 8 freshmen biddies got the corner suite (which we should have gotten) and are pretty and that's just annoying. sorry i sound like a huge stuck up bitch but this is my journal so fuck offff. but yeah.
still though, new paltz is where i feel at home and ruby and i are shopping for our room and stuff i got a new comforter and shitt and im going to make a collage tomorrow :)
love-fever
going back to new paltz is going to be fulfilling. i miss my friends and my life and i even miss classes. i changed my major: from english to communication disorders. theres drama at school though. the guy i was hooking up with at the end of the year and into the summer is living next door to me in my dorm. if that's not bad enough, he's living with 5 guys from a DIFFERENT frat then he's in and that probably aren't going to like him. and i'm friends with these guys. AND. 8 freshmen biddies got the corner suite (which we should have gotten) and are pretty and that's just annoying. sorry i sound like a huge stuck up bitch but this is my journal so fuck offff. but yeah.
still though, new paltz is where i feel at home and ruby and i are shopping for our room and stuff i got a new comforter and shitt and im going to make a collage tomorrow :)
love-fever