well ive been thinkin 'bout the future.
i'm suffocating in a sea of confusion and i am drowning fast.
how can one person who you haven't known for long leave you like this? yes, i knew you were going to leave and i wouldn't be able to see you for a year, but i got attached. not in that clingy kinda way, but in that you are so amazing i want to spend as much time with you that i possibly can. but when you left, you just left. yes, you said goodbye, and yes you left me a rose, but what does that all mean about the two of us? i know long distance doesn't really work, especially 5000 miles away, but letting me know how you feel about me and how you want to go throughout this year apart would have been nice. and i've asked about this and you just ignore the question (well so far). i just want to know if what we had can be picked up on when you come back or am i just a fool and should just totally let go.
i wish my parents would be more definite with me on what i am and what i am not allowed to do and what you will and will not do for me. yeah i know the main stuff, but there is to many gray areas. and when i turn 18, how will things be. to me, i see it being just the same and that is not fair. i swear, they just want to baby me for the rest of my life. that is bullshit. i want some fucking answers and i need to know them now.
i need to stop being so judgmental and stop being mean to certain people. i'm sorry if i have ever been mean to you. and i'm sorry if i have ever done anything to hurt you or make me dislike you. i just want senior year to be about moving away from the past and starting new with everyone. its gonna be hard, but hopefully i can make it happen.
how can one person who you haven't known for long leave you like this? yes, i knew you were going to leave and i wouldn't be able to see you for a year, but i got attached. not in that clingy kinda way, but in that you are so amazing i want to spend as much time with you that i possibly can. but when you left, you just left. yes, you said goodbye, and yes you left me a rose, but what does that all mean about the two of us? i know long distance doesn't really work, especially 5000 miles away, but letting me know how you feel about me and how you want to go throughout this year apart would have been nice. and i've asked about this and you just ignore the question (well so far). i just want to know if what we had can be picked up on when you come back or am i just a fool and should just totally let go.
i wish my parents would be more definite with me on what i am and what i am not allowed to do and what you will and will not do for me. yeah i know the main stuff, but there is to many gray areas. and when i turn 18, how will things be. to me, i see it being just the same and that is not fair. i swear, they just want to baby me for the rest of my life. that is bullshit. i want some fucking answers and i need to know them now.
i need to stop being so judgmental and stop being mean to certain people. i'm sorry if i have ever been mean to you. and i'm sorry if i have ever done anything to hurt you or make me dislike you. i just want senior year to be about moving away from the past and starting new with everyone. its gonna be hard, but hopefully i can make it happen.