thoughts to ponder
so after being in a crazy relationship for over a yr...
we are taking a break. and i think its doing good for us.
we still act like we are together at times, and fight like we are...
but a weight has been lifted off my shoulders in a way.
i love him to death and know that one day i do want to marry him. but we both need to change/grow up before we can do so...
so i have been hanging out with good people lately. old old friends and real close friends i couldnt really hang out with while i was with brian. i have mixed feelings about one of em. we hung out last weekend and had a blast. i havent had that much fun in a really long time. things happened. and idk if im just confused or the feelings i had for him 4 yrs ago are coming back. hes real laid back and the type of guy ive always gone after. i just dont know what to think.
on the other side of things, we are still friends after things happened last weekend... and idk. i miss him and he misses me. hopefully things work out in any way shape or form.
im tired of brians rudeness, disrespectfulness, his name calling, screaming and yelling at me. im just out to have a good time with good people and if love comes with it then great! but i think honestly i have found it in the wrong person. or not with the wrong person but at the wrong time. the littlest things mean the most to me and no one can ever take advantage of those things... but he does.
COMMENTS?
we are taking a break. and i think its doing good for us.
we still act like we are together at times, and fight like we are...
but a weight has been lifted off my shoulders in a way.
i love him to death and know that one day i do want to marry him. but we both need to change/grow up before we can do so...
so i have been hanging out with good people lately. old old friends and real close friends i couldnt really hang out with while i was with brian. i have mixed feelings about one of em. we hung out last weekend and had a blast. i havent had that much fun in a really long time. things happened. and idk if im just confused or the feelings i had for him 4 yrs ago are coming back. hes real laid back and the type of guy ive always gone after. i just dont know what to think.
on the other side of things, we are still friends after things happened last weekend... and idk. i miss him and he misses me. hopefully things work out in any way shape or form.
im tired of brians rudeness, disrespectfulness, his name calling, screaming and yelling at me. im just out to have a good time with good people and if love comes with it then great! but i think honestly i have found it in the wrong person. or not with the wrong person but at the wrong time. the littlest things mean the most to me and no one can ever take advantage of those things... but he does.
COMMENTS?