GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I'm entering that phase into life where I just think I know what I want.
I wanna move out so badly. Pat & Liz invited me to live with them in Bloomingdale as soon as I get a job & can pay them 300 bucks a month rent. That's gonna be TOUGH for me, especially because I have this feeling that my job hunt won't go well. I dunno, I just gotta have faith, I guess.
With this whole Christmas thing coming up and I still have NO idea what I'm gonna get Drew. And I'm flat broke. UGHHHH. I'm so pissed/depressed, and I feel awful because I'm supposed to be happy 'cause of the holidays. Gooooooooooooooooooooooosh.
AND I lost my friggin' digital camera cable thing that connects the camera to the computer so I can't upload pictures. Great, just to make my life a little less enjoyable.
Jen asked me if Drew and I wanted to chill with her and Matt on New Years. I was like, HELL YEAH! 'cause I really love New Years partying. I call up Drew and tell him we're chillin' with Matt and Jen and he goes, "Ahhh no, I'm tryin' to stay clean and not drink because I can't get into trouble." So I said, "Ok then, I'll just go myself." And he doesn't like the idea. He wants ME to spend NEW YEARS at his sober house. Doin' nothin'. I totally understand his point of trying to steer clear of alcohol at least for a little while (the sober house will test everyone after New Years) and I begged him to not drink. He said no. "With Matt around? Of course I'm gonna drink!" Good point. Whatever. I still wanna hang out with Jen & Matt no matter what.
Whatever though, there's a lot of shit I need to think about. I need to find Drew a gift, I need to get a FUCKING JOB, I need to get the fuck outta Newark. But I doubt it's gonna happen, sadly, 'cause I can never find a job and 300 dollars is a hell of a lot for me. I need to move, though. God, I need a fucking miracle to help me go through this.
Goodnight.
I wanna move out so badly. Pat & Liz invited me to live with them in Bloomingdale as soon as I get a job & can pay them 300 bucks a month rent. That's gonna be TOUGH for me, especially because I have this feeling that my job hunt won't go well. I dunno, I just gotta have faith, I guess.
With this whole Christmas thing coming up and I still have NO idea what I'm gonna get Drew. And I'm flat broke. UGHHHH. I'm so pissed/depressed, and I feel awful because I'm supposed to be happy 'cause of the holidays. Gooooooooooooooooooooooosh.
AND I lost my friggin' digital camera cable thing that connects the camera to the computer so I can't upload pictures. Great, just to make my life a little less enjoyable.
Jen asked me if Drew and I wanted to chill with her and Matt on New Years. I was like, HELL YEAH! 'cause I really love New Years partying. I call up Drew and tell him we're chillin' with Matt and Jen and he goes, "Ahhh no, I'm tryin' to stay clean and not drink because I can't get into trouble." So I said, "Ok then, I'll just go myself." And he doesn't like the idea. He wants ME to spend NEW YEARS at his sober house. Doin' nothin'. I totally understand his point of trying to steer clear of alcohol at least for a little while (the sober house will test everyone after New Years) and I begged him to not drink. He said no. "With Matt around? Of course I'm gonna drink!" Good point. Whatever. I still wanna hang out with Jen & Matt no matter what.
Whatever though, there's a lot of shit I need to think about. I need to find Drew a gift, I need to get a FUCKING JOB, I need to get the fuck outta Newark. But I doubt it's gonna happen, sadly, 'cause I can never find a job and 300 dollars is a hell of a lot for me. I need to move, though. God, I need a fucking miracle to help me go through this.
Goodnight.