less than two weeks.
My computer fucking sucks. Every time I write an entry it gets fucking deleted.
So my birthday consisted of: smoking around a fire the night before. A visit from Roxanne. Getting a couple piercings. The beach/swimming/kayaking with Branden. Buying 18-ish things. Vegan Cake. Thai Siam. Portland...amazing hookah bar (although they wouldnt let Sarah in)...and Tim cutting off a cop and scaring the shit out of me.
Saturday I got my silly tattoo. I want another. It didnt hurt much. It will need some touch-ups since its on my finger.
Sunday sucked. Branden and his friends are getting click-ish. Its weird. He doesn't exactly care about spending time with me before I leave. All he does is argue with me anyway.
Monday I trained like fuck (did an hour long cycling class and RAN after. and walked 3 miles as soon as I woke up that morning)... only to find out the triathalon this weekend is full. Branden didn't seem to care... but I've been working hard, and training for these last few months. I'm not good with failure and not reaching my goals. Now I will have to completely re-train after Europe which will be difficult. My mom's comfort was... "at least you lost some weight by working out so much".... ahh thanks mom, reaching goals doesnt matter as long as I'm a little thinner???
fuck it. everything seems to go wrong.
anyway.... tonight Sarah and I walked around with out backpacks to practice. It wasn't so bad I'm not too worried about it now. I'm mostly just worried about money at this point. I also had chai which made life better-on Sarah.
I can't wait for Europe. I can't wait for Denver/ Americorps. I hope I can live with Jilly in between because I probably will never get an opportunity to be around her/live with my older sis again.
The following need to hang out with me before July 2nd:
1. Roxanne
2. Katie & Luis
3. Dave
4. Avery
5. more Mike
6. Ashleigh etc.
7.a little tiny bit more Branden
8. Jayne
9. Sheena/ Isabella
everyone dont forget about monday the 25th!!!!!!!!! thats when sarah and I are having the amazing going away party!!!!!!!!!!!! MONDAY NIGHT BITCHES.
So my birthday consisted of: smoking around a fire the night before. A visit from Roxanne. Getting a couple piercings. The beach/swimming/kayaking with Branden. Buying 18-ish things. Vegan Cake. Thai Siam. Portland...amazing hookah bar (although they wouldnt let Sarah in)...and Tim cutting off a cop and scaring the shit out of me.
Saturday I got my silly tattoo. I want another. It didnt hurt much. It will need some touch-ups since its on my finger.
Sunday sucked. Branden and his friends are getting click-ish. Its weird. He doesn't exactly care about spending time with me before I leave. All he does is argue with me anyway.
Monday I trained like fuck (did an hour long cycling class and RAN after. and walked 3 miles as soon as I woke up that morning)... only to find out the triathalon this weekend is full. Branden didn't seem to care... but I've been working hard, and training for these last few months. I'm not good with failure and not reaching my goals. Now I will have to completely re-train after Europe which will be difficult. My mom's comfort was... "at least you lost some weight by working out so much".... ahh thanks mom, reaching goals doesnt matter as long as I'm a little thinner???
fuck it. everything seems to go wrong.
anyway.... tonight Sarah and I walked around with out backpacks to practice. It wasn't so bad I'm not too worried about it now. I'm mostly just worried about money at this point. I also had chai which made life better-on Sarah.
I can't wait for Europe. I can't wait for Denver/ Americorps. I hope I can live with Jilly in between because I probably will never get an opportunity to be around her/live with my older sis again.
The following need to hang out with me before July 2nd:
1. Roxanne
2. Katie & Luis
3. Dave
4. Avery
5. more Mike
6. Ashleigh etc.
7.a little tiny bit more Branden
8. Jayne
9. Sheena/ Isabella
everyone dont forget about monday the 25th!!!!!!!!! thats when sarah and I are having the amazing going away party!!!!!!!!!!!! MONDAY NIGHT BITCHES.