life is CRAZY
I don't know the difference between right and wrong and wrong and right. I can't grasp reality. Everything is so surreal. My body and mind feel seperated. I switch states of mind every few hours. My brain is a constant slush of confusion and it keeps on leaking out of my mouth.
After much thinking, and dueling pessimism/ optimism... I have decided that although high school was torture, (right up to Mr. Nickerson calling me Jayne).... there were a few good things about life the last four years. Granted, it was mainly the people and life outside of school. but still...
it was also....
late nights. caffeine pills. conan o'brien. wheat thins. weed. soy lattes. guitars. bonfires. blunts. cigarettes. sleeping till two in the afternoon. nervous first dates. good books. movie nights. the bus crew. paint. jack johnson. sushi. late night phone calls. firsts. apples for lunch. Isabellas. figure studies. goodnight kisses. regina. ani. rilo kiley. neutral milk hotel. the pixies.clapton. pearljam. pink floyd. sublime. dylan. marely. that 70's show. swimming. driving standards. chinese firedrills. wine. joints. swishers. fireworks. star-gazing. long walks. running. protests. millions of journals. sex. hookas. honduras. trips to providence. portland. meca. tea. family christmas's. notes. english class discussions. art madness. political campaigns. skinny dipping. kayaking. skipping school. squeezing four people in katie's bed. smoking under the covers. dance parties in roxanne's room. pants-less dave. loft orgies. carriage house fiestas. kelly's camp. stomach-butterflies. philosophy. buttons. questions. fear. existential breakdowns. mooning. screaming. f-lists. dennys. kykey dykies. photo. dinosaur noises. pasta parties. guacamole. the titianic. huckabees. thoreau. ms. oreilly. muffins. ms. manhart. railroad tracks. folk festivals. washington dc. talks with mom. bubble fights. peanut fights. egg fights. grass fights. ice fights. dried roses. led zeppelin. the doors. the velvet underground. the who. counting crows. bad haircuts. bike rides. borders. airports. poems. making t-shirts. hitting on mr. wingard. field hockey. assists. goals. talent show. nurseries. grandmothers. magritte. kandinsky. escape plans. italian dinners. cuddle-fests. quantum physics. strangers. crutches. cologne. road trips. natural living center. big sunglasses. europe-planning. etc etc etc
After much thinking, and dueling pessimism/ optimism... I have decided that although high school was torture, (right up to Mr. Nickerson calling me Jayne).... there were a few good things about life the last four years. Granted, it was mainly the people and life outside of school. but still...
it was also....
late nights. caffeine pills. conan o'brien. wheat thins. weed. soy lattes. guitars. bonfires. blunts. cigarettes. sleeping till two in the afternoon. nervous first dates. good books. movie nights. the bus crew. paint. jack johnson. sushi. late night phone calls. firsts. apples for lunch. Isabellas. figure studies. goodnight kisses. regina. ani. rilo kiley. neutral milk hotel. the pixies.clapton. pearljam. pink floyd. sublime. dylan. marely. that 70's show. swimming. driving standards. chinese firedrills. wine. joints. swishers. fireworks. star-gazing. long walks. running. protests. millions of journals. sex. hookas. honduras. trips to providence. portland. meca. tea. family christmas's. notes. english class discussions. art madness. political campaigns. skinny dipping. kayaking. skipping school. squeezing four people in katie's bed. smoking under the covers. dance parties in roxanne's room. pants-less dave. loft orgies. carriage house fiestas. kelly's camp. stomach-butterflies. philosophy. buttons. questions. fear. existential breakdowns. mooning. screaming. f-lists. dennys. kykey dykies. photo. dinosaur noises. pasta parties. guacamole. the titianic. huckabees. thoreau. ms. oreilly. muffins. ms. manhart. railroad tracks. folk festivals. washington dc. talks with mom. bubble fights. peanut fights. egg fights. grass fights. ice fights. dried roses. led zeppelin. the doors. the velvet underground. the who. counting crows. bad haircuts. bike rides. borders. airports. poems. making t-shirts. hitting on mr. wingard. field hockey. assists. goals. talent show. nurseries. grandmothers. magritte. kandinsky. escape plans. italian dinners. cuddle-fests. quantum physics. strangers. crutches. cologne. road trips. natural living center. big sunglasses. europe-planning. etc etc etc