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[pearljam579]

I feel like shit. I went to the hospital to visit my nana (my grandmother on my dad's side) today. It's so hard seeing her like that. It was the first time I'd seen her in weeks, and the last time I saw her before that, we would have conversations and you could barely tell she had cancer. When I saw her today, she was in a coma. It was so much

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[rawr_bean]

andrew, i'm worried about you. i know that you probably won't want to hear what i have to say, but i must. you can't worry about silly things like gals! it just brings shit. trust me, i know how it can be...well its a long story, but if you'd like to hear it, we can always chat on the phone again like we did today. =] i've learned that if you stop focusing on getting someone, it will come to you easier and you won't be stressed. and i mean, i'm not trying to lecture you, and i'm sorry if it sounds like that, i'm just worried. and no matter how little [or not at all] that we talk i still love you.

i'm so sorry to hear about your nana. i bet she was a wonderful lady to be your grandmother. i hope things will start to go more smoothly soon.

and also, anytime you wake up in the middle of the night, please call me. i will always be up to listen to you, no matter how late it is or how long you need to chat. or even if you need someone to just sit on the phone with you, no talking at all. i'll pick up.

i don't know if you get these "lecture talks" alot from other people, but i want you to know i am completely sincere. and i ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS will be here for you. no matter what. i promise.