Aug 14, 2005 19:48
Ok I need my MEDS NOW! Dear God this depression is about to kill me. I can't get to sleep and when I do I don't want to wake up. GRRRR. I would say why me but damn there are soooo many ppl out there with much worse problems that what I've got. It's just that (to use my fav. saying...) I don't know. All I want is it be happy is that bad? To want to be happy and try to get there? Maybe it is for me because when it seems like I am finally going to be so, WHAM something happens. A death, financial trouble, etc... To quote Sarah from Labyrinth "It's not fair", but then again who said life was suppose to be fair?
Anyways...
I had a dream last night/this morning that might interest the group.
Most if not all of you know of my phobia of zombies and of graveyards well the dream delt mainly with them but I had no fear of the graveyard and well the zombies... ack here read:
The dream started off that there was this guy that wanted me to be like his adopted neice and have me call him 'poppy' and he would pay for what my loans had been paying for, pay off the loans I already had, finish paying for mama's funeral, take me to NYC before school started, and pay for me to go to TX for fall break. It got kinda messed up when we went to NYC... he apparently knew Tim Curry and the director of Spamalot and they gave me an audition and wanted me to come back the next summer as part of the cast. They were going to give me the weekend of Rogersville's Ren Faire off and the cast was going to come to it as well in garb. Tim Curry was having me make his for him and giving me a good fee to do so. He came to get a fitting at the school and wanted to meet Dr. B, Dr. LaPlant, and Mr. Baumgartner. After the fitting and he left I went to finish up on his garb so he could take it with him the next day. I went to take a break from sewing and for some reason I decided to walk in the graveyard.
While in the graveyard I went over to one of the pulsing blue lights (like I have been seeing lately) and suddenly I was on a different planet or plane or something. It just wasn't Emory or any place that I had been before.
I was on the top turret (sp??) of a castle and there were these three teenagers with wands (sort of like Harry Potter yea but different.) The two guys and the girl were brothers and sister and they were trying to pull a third person up before they fell and having a bad job of it. I went over to help them and got the guy up, who happened to be their father. They had surprised him for his birthday but scared him so badly he jumped and almost fell of the castle. Well I turned to try and get back and the light or whatever it was was gone. The guy said that I was now one of his servants (big explination here that I can't remember as to how I was so) but since I saved his life he would make it to where I was more of a pet which according to his kids was a very good thing. They actually asked him if they could have me as their watcher (aka babysitter) because I was cool.
They guy had a few more kids three older boys two were twins (the eldest) and dear goodness they were good looking. The other boy was just a year older than the teens who were triplets. Then he had two younger girls 7 and 8ish, as well as a new baby.
The twins took me under their wing the younger twin kinda liked me. The entire family were like aristocrats (lord of somthing or other and had loads of land). I came to find out that these ppl were supposedly the gods for our world (main reason I was a servant there even though I saved his life.) And that these were a family that were still in power but not as much as they use to be. (They wouldn't tell me what gods they were or who their father was.) Their father was always coming back and forth between the two worlds and had fixed it to where no one missed me. But then again no one remembered me either. Still for some reason this didn't bother me I was actually happy in their world. I played with the kids all day, discussed the family business with the younger twin, and tried to befriend the older twin who had to work alot.
Found out later that he had upset some older gods and owed them a life debt, and that was the reason the younger twin was working on the family business.
Any way the father wanted me to marry one of the twins and set them both as my boyfriends to try and court me, because I had magical talent and was of the "other world" and may help them in someway.
Things started to get bad there though. The family couldn't leave the castle anymore, they rarely did in the first place but still, they couldn't even go out on the grounds. There were zombies all over the place and I was terrified at first but the twins comforted me and told me that the castle was enchanted and the zombies couldn't climb or open doors, the only way they could hurt any of us was if we let them in or went out to them. (Being held is so nice... even in a dream sometimes.)
But there was one of the light things again on the same turret and I went through it again and this world had changed drastically and I went to find the father guy and found out that the other gods were trying to kill him while he was here and I tried ot save him but couldn't. I went back to the other world and found out that he had willed me as his heir and that the only way for the family to stay as they were was if one of the twins married me. I woke up as this was being explained to me by the older twin.
But that's about it. It wasn't a night mare and usually for me I wake up cold and sweating almost screaming with zombies, and I wasn't scared of the grave yard. Now maybe this dream doesn't seem wierd to you but to me it does... what do you all think? I know it means something I just can't see it right now, maybe because it wasn't finished and I don't know when I will dream it again and have it finished.
Love and hugs!