Stress is the secret of life...
I came to a realization today. This hit me as I was walking across the bridge on Kedzie (and by walking I mean power walking/running so I wouldn't be *too* late) to band. I was feeling quite happy and I was kind of confused by this because really, my life has been insane lately. Really and truly. Not only do I have a million things to do and deal with, most of them are not just big things, they're huge life changing things. This has been really stressful, but rewarding. And it hit me that I really do enjoy the stress and chaos of running from one thing to another; That only getting a few hours of sleep and never before midnight- ever- satisfies me. There's a sense of accomplishment in knowing "yeah I work too much and don't sleep or eat very well and need a truckload of caffiene to make it through my day and am taking a full class load, but still doing homework and am staying on top of several huge life events and living to tell about it". I'm buying into the craziness of our hectic dog-eat-dog world and it's invigorating. In short, the insanity that will probably kill me, is incredibly pleasing and makes me feel quite happy. That's really sick and twisted.