Happy Mother's Day
It's one year since you have left us. Nothing seems like it has changed, yet everything did.
At the columbarium, we were preparing the food and prayer items for you.. and we asked each other 'where do we put the remaining joss sticks?'
I felt that gush of sadness. I recalled 3 years back when we were at the columbarium preparing food for Bro and my Grandparents, I thought to myself that no one would know what to do if you were not here. I tried to mirror the steps you were doing as much as possible, I mean.. we have done this for the last 10+ years. But I guess, we did take you for granted, Mummy. We thought you would always be around to protect us, to tell us what's our next steps, to be the one remaining confident even though you probably didn't know what to do sometimes. You were our strongest anchor and now without you, I am just the makeshift pillar that's floating in the water. I try to be strong for the family, but it's a task that has been so daunting.
You were incredible, I knew that all along, but I never knew HOW incredible.
Even after you have left us, your spirit remains in my heart. Your strength, grit, love, warmth, confidence, intelligence, savvy-ness, smiles... I want to carry these traits with me.
Thank you for making me so extremely proud of you Mummy. Happy Mother's Day.
At the columbarium, we were preparing the food and prayer items for you.. and we asked each other 'where do we put the remaining joss sticks?'
I felt that gush of sadness. I recalled 3 years back when we were at the columbarium preparing food for Bro and my Grandparents, I thought to myself that no one would know what to do if you were not here. I tried to mirror the steps you were doing as much as possible, I mean.. we have done this for the last 10+ years. But I guess, we did take you for granted, Mummy. We thought you would always be around to protect us, to tell us what's our next steps, to be the one remaining confident even though you probably didn't know what to do sometimes. You were our strongest anchor and now without you, I am just the makeshift pillar that's floating in the water. I try to be strong for the family, but it's a task that has been so daunting.
You were incredible, I knew that all along, but I never knew HOW incredible.
Even after you have left us, your spirit remains in my heart. Your strength, grit, love, warmth, confidence, intelligence, savvy-ness, smiles... I want to carry these traits with me.
Thank you for making me so extremely proud of you Mummy. Happy Mother's Day.