FML
You know how sometimes you just have to say, FUCK MY LIFE?! Well, today is certainly the day.
To start things off, I have bronchitis, I'm in the middle of a summer class, and I can't miss a day. I had to take off work on the weekend just to get to the 'oh god kill me' state I'm in right now. I spent the greater part of the weekend in bed asleep. Another decent part in the urgent care center. And the rest sitting up in bed, eating, watching tv, studying, or drawing. Mostly studying since I had a test today. Which I think I did pretty good on, fortunately. If I thought I did bad, today would be even worse.
Next, a shocker. One of my best online friends who I've known for over a year told me they were actually a girl today. I mean, I'm not totally surprised, but a the same time, it's kind of like 'what else were you bluffing about?' You know? *shrug* I dunno. I still love her (as a friend like I did before XDD), so it's all good.
Another great thing: I just got sexually harassed by some prick on myspace. *sighs* People need to grow up and get a life and leave me alone. I'm not THAT pretty anyway stupid fucktards.
Finally, my family doesn't know when to stop fighting. I am by no means able to deal with the stress right now and they still won't stop. My sister might not be coming home tomorrow, because mom is threatening to throw her out of the house completely because the stupid girl doesn't know how to follow directions or ANYTHING. I mean, life would be easier if she just DID WHAT SHE WAS TOLD TO DO. And not start fights and be smart at everyone. I don't know where the hell she gets off on starting fights and stuff. It just makes everyone else pissed at her. And Russell isn't doing a damn thing to help it either. He has taught her SO well how to push mom's buttons and that in turns pushes MY buttons because mom starts bellowing at the top of her lungs and well, I just can't take it, you know? *sighs* That's why I told my mom I'm considering a dorm as well. But I told her the reason was gas and driving. The drive up there gets so old, so fast. And the gas prices just keep going up. *shakes head* Anyway, if the sister problem gets eliminated, then I think things will get better at home and I won't be so reluctant to come home. I mean, I work extra hours at work so I can avoid going home. My bosses know that there's stuff going on at home, so they don't ride me about working extra. As long as I'm not wasting their time, they don't mind me hanging around. And I stay extra long at school now too. I don't go in early, but I try to stay longer so I can stave off having to deal with the mom-sister-russell combo.
I just hope everything gets better soon. I'd rather not die of bronchitis because I'm too stressed out to get better.
~ Rae
To start things off, I have bronchitis, I'm in the middle of a summer class, and I can't miss a day. I had to take off work on the weekend just to get to the 'oh god kill me' state I'm in right now. I spent the greater part of the weekend in bed asleep. Another decent part in the urgent care center. And the rest sitting up in bed, eating, watching tv, studying, or drawing. Mostly studying since I had a test today. Which I think I did pretty good on, fortunately. If I thought I did bad, today would be even worse.
Next, a shocker. One of my best online friends who I've known for over a year told me they were actually a girl today. I mean, I'm not totally surprised, but a the same time, it's kind of like 'what else were you bluffing about?' You know? *shrug* I dunno. I still love her (as a friend like I did before XDD), so it's all good.
Another great thing: I just got sexually harassed by some prick on myspace. *sighs* People need to grow up and get a life and leave me alone. I'm not THAT pretty anyway stupid fucktards.
Finally, my family doesn't know when to stop fighting. I am by no means able to deal with the stress right now and they still won't stop. My sister might not be coming home tomorrow, because mom is threatening to throw her out of the house completely because the stupid girl doesn't know how to follow directions or ANYTHING. I mean, life would be easier if she just DID WHAT SHE WAS TOLD TO DO. And not start fights and be smart at everyone. I don't know where the hell she gets off on starting fights and stuff. It just makes everyone else pissed at her. And Russell isn't doing a damn thing to help it either. He has taught her SO well how to push mom's buttons and that in turns pushes MY buttons because mom starts bellowing at the top of her lungs and well, I just can't take it, you know? *sighs* That's why I told my mom I'm considering a dorm as well. But I told her the reason was gas and driving. The drive up there gets so old, so fast. And the gas prices just keep going up. *shakes head* Anyway, if the sister problem gets eliminated, then I think things will get better at home and I won't be so reluctant to come home. I mean, I work extra hours at work so I can avoid going home. My bosses know that there's stuff going on at home, so they don't ride me about working extra. As long as I'm not wasting their time, they don't mind me hanging around. And I stay extra long at school now too. I don't go in early, but I try to stay longer so I can stave off having to deal with the mom-sister-russell combo.
I just hope everything gets better soon. I'd rather not die of bronchitis because I'm too stressed out to get better.
~ Rae