I Feel the Need...
THE NEED FOR SPEED.
I jest. I feel the need to update. Despite the fact I'm in a mood, I wanted to update the journal and just vent for a minute.
TODAY:
concert day! yaaaaaay! except I kind of screwed up on my first - and most likely last - solo. *headdesk* there are reasons for messing up that I'd rather not talk about online. Or in person. I just don't want to talk about it. It wasn't a bad mess up, but it was still a mess up I've never made before and that just kind of ticked me off. so that made today kinda sucky. but we played beautifully which makes me happy. i'm just sad that they're disbanding string orchestra. oh well. i'll just do symphony instead :3 i always kind of like symphony better than just strings :3 symphony has a fuller sound.
LAST WEEK:
another organic test. probably failed it. a calc test. probably got a c or b on that.
OVERALL:
lately i've been kind of happy and stuff. but when i get by myself, then it smacks me in the face and i get really depressed. i don't know why but most of the time i just want to curl up in a ball and cry. Robert suggested I do something out of the norm and just go with it. I can think of a lot of things I'd like to do. But most of them would get me in trouble and are preventing me from doing them. SO... I dunno. I just don't know. I want to get out of this funk so bad and especially before summer session starts.
I bid you adieu.
~ RAE ~
I jest. I feel the need to update. Despite the fact I'm in a mood, I wanted to update the journal and just vent for a minute.
TODAY:
concert day! yaaaaaay! except I kind of screwed up on my first - and most likely last - solo. *headdesk* there are reasons for messing up that I'd rather not talk about online. Or in person. I just don't want to talk about it. It wasn't a bad mess up, but it was still a mess up I've never made before and that just kind of ticked me off. so that made today kinda sucky. but we played beautifully which makes me happy. i'm just sad that they're disbanding string orchestra. oh well. i'll just do symphony instead :3 i always kind of like symphony better than just strings :3 symphony has a fuller sound.
LAST WEEK:
another organic test. probably failed it. a calc test. probably got a c or b on that.
OVERALL:
lately i've been kind of happy and stuff. but when i get by myself, then it smacks me in the face and i get really depressed. i don't know why but most of the time i just want to curl up in a ball and cry. Robert suggested I do something out of the norm and just go with it. I can think of a lot of things I'd like to do. But most of them would get me in trouble and are preventing me from doing them. SO... I dunno. I just don't know. I want to get out of this funk so bad and especially before summer session starts.
I bid you adieu.
~ RAE ~